kenshi92

I've come a long way over the past eight years from experiencing my day in a cloud of vague misery wishing for death but too pussy to actually kill myself. Now, I am a jaded sweet heart with a psychopathic idealism that is only bound by a overwhelming sense of morality. Suicide is still apart of my life but instead of thinking about killing myself over pain and misery I feel that one day I will be unable to fulfill anymore life goals and rather than riding the roller coaster into a downward spiral just trying to get the show renewed for a 15th season maybe its time to check out. As for now I am doing my best to keep motivated even though thinking for me is like swimming in molasses difficult, expensive, and sticky. So on an upbeat note I guess what I want to say is that I'm not the only one that has these feelings and in moments of despair I can be rather helpful so most people.