keltdruid

My wife asked me for a hand-parting today. She does not want to divorce until I get a job with benefits, so she wants a spiritual parting so she can start the new year independent of me. I feel like dying. I cannot do this at this time. My life is in shambles. I have nothing to look forward to. I have nothing to give me hope: No job, wife and daughter gone, health crappy, bills piling up, my brother may be dying. I feel so helpless and so alone and useless. I just want to die. How can I serve a god that is this fucking cruel?