1. I am dealing with having to move house which i think will really benefit me long term. For the next few months it'll be rough but i will get there & when i do will finally have something to call mine to be proud of (long term this is haha)
2. I have begun working out and have finally realised the hype is right... it really is beneficial... it really does help you feel better, the only days i have had an episode was the days i didn't bother to work out
3. I am going to be travelling to different cities every month next year; possibly to France/America if finances turn around.
4. I have finally been diagnosed, emotionally unstable (soon wont be) personality disorder. On medication & to be honest I'm taking it don't feel much difference. I notice i can't stay calm for as long but i know what i am saying a lot more so can usually explain things by the 2nd time the correct way and am able to control my emotions a bit better daily... i suppose its a long road to actually being on the right medication but the fact is i went and got the help, i got the diagnosis so thats half the hard bit done.
5. I know what i need in my life and you guys, as friends, hopefuls, SG's, members. The people that make me feel free and like a second chance is possible. Support and friendship is all i need. People often go down the path of freaking out running away from a diagnosis and things like that... which is what i did for a long time; but now I'm learning to face issues head on I'm just hoping things will keep moving forwards at a good pace :) I have a couple friends where i live, a friends family who treat me like their own which is nice.
6. I am eating healthy ish food when i can afford to, more to the point I'm starting to like it a lot more. And want to eat food high in nutrition a lot more. Which is a really good thing, i struggle to eat big meals but i love meals now and when money sorts itself out (which it will) then i can have a better diet which should give me more motivation and energy to get off my ass and go to the gym!
7. I have a really clever sister; sort of my hero who has a lot of health issues but this year achieved so much, got great final results at UNI, and got a job after doing courses and passing over the summer period. She's now a school teacher upto A levels in Science which is so awesome and such an inspiration to me. She has fibromalagia, versatile arthritis, these giving her other more personal issues to deal with and yet my genius sister is in control of her life, always in the drivers seat and doing fucking wicked. I love her more than everything and though we take different paths she remains and always will a solid role model for me. <3
8. I am finally alright with being the way i am, i hate things I've done and that wont change but managing to start learning meditation and how to control myself is helping me not forgive myself but forget knowing time can heal wounds with effort and change.
9. I am a little happier which is an achievement in itself.
10. I want christmas dinner everyday for the rest of my life. CARVERY GET IN ME haha love roast dinners always my fave food so I'm always excited for this time of year for that. I am not a christmas or traditions kind of girl which hopefully will change with time, i just love seeing my best friends families faces and hanging out with the kids having a laugh, forgetting your worries and everything for a day to just chill and be there in the moment. Christmas is truly a special time mainly because no one lives in the moment anymore, not unless its an important situation.. i think its a time where often people whether religious or not switch off and just live in the now, live in their dreams and not worry about their reality. I appreciate that.
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I hope you all have a merry christmas, and i hope you all have a New Year to be proud of and even though that NEW ME bollox gets old i cant wait to actually make changes for the better. You should be to!
LOTS OF LOVE
AND REMEMBER, DONT DRINK AND DRIVE/PARK AND SPARK
