kelland

Hooray for hell if it's on the way.

Well, I took my hiatus. Can I say that I am doing well now that time has passed? Let us examine my past two weeks.

I can wholeheartedly say that after I wrote my last blog, I went to bed and prayed to God for change. I am not religious and normally I don't pray much, but God changed things. Within a few days, my dad was permitted to return to work as normal. Shannon called and we resolved matters. I emptied loads of vent up frustration and emotion to my friends and family. I felt like everything was definitely better. It was so strange how everything improved so much in one fucking day. Wow.

I spent almost all of spring break with Kevin and Kayleigh. We saw V for Vendetta (again), went out to eat, hung out at Kevin's house, hung out at Kayleigh's house, watched Brokeback Mountain, and had an all-around great spring break. It was probably the best spring break I've ever had. My Easter was sub par. I felt groggy the entire day. I went to church at 6:15 in the morning, and upon returning home after breakfast and a trip my grandma's, I slept until almost three in the afternoon. I distinctly remember having a dream about Miah that was particularly strange.

Then, this week came. I guess my "I feel great about life" quota was met for the season because everything got real shitty-like again. For starters, I have been getting terrible headaches again. The kind of headaches that fade away for a few hours or maybe over night but return shortly thereafter. It's like one constant headache that varies in pain... but it really never ends. Yesterday my dad was let go. Let go as in fired. I have no idea why. He has no idea why. They did not give him a reason. The man that delivered the message to him was just as confused as my dad. Why would they let him come back to work, assure him that he had made no violations, only to fire him less than a week later, and with no explanation, no less??? My dad was really depressed. He told me that he would do anything to keep his job... he said it was the best job he ever had, and I know he really wanted to cry, but he fell asleep on his chair instead. In that way, we're a lot alike. After he told me about his job, I went to bed, too. I woke up periodically to read some of Brave New World for English class, but I was achy and nauseous for reasons unknown, so I gave up twenty-five pages before I reached the end of the assignment.

On a side note, Jessica went to the doctor today and found out that she has pneumonia. Apparently it's pretty bad, so please keep her in your thoughts.

So just as the cake of disappointment sets after exiting the oven, a thick fucking layer of BULLSHIT ices the top and oozes down the sides. Guess who's been re-hired at Baker's? You guessed right: Miah. I suppose my dream was some sort of premonition that I should've noted more carefully, but regardless, when I found out he was coming back (which was about threepointfive hours ago) I was enraged to say the very least. I went to Baker's and talked to my boss Breck. I told him everything... how Miah and I were friends, how we started to date, how that went astray, how he treated me like shit, and how I feel about him after it's all said and done. In a nutshell, I told Breck that was I was far from comfortable with the idea of working together again. I told him that as far as I knew, Miah is still drowning in the sea of drug-addiction-denial. He told me not to worry. He said that he was going to talk to Miah and observe him closely. Basically, he is in no position to ever treat me like shit again, especially at work. He won't be a manager. He will be another run-of-the-mill employee, just like me. Therefore, fuck him. If he even starts to be an asshole to me, I am going to tell him to go to hell, and for once, I'm not going to feel bad for doing something mean.

Here's good news, though! I've been awarded two more scholarships. My efforts have not been ignored by the Gods of Higher Education.

In conclusion, as I've said, as Rush has said, "The more things change, the more they stay the same." And so it is. So it goes. So here I am. "I am out the door before I'm out the door." And in reference to everything I'm so tired of seeing, "O brave new world that has such people in it." I'm going to go study for anatomy and go to bed. Well wishes to all and some of those sentiments reciprocated, pleasekthanks.