kelland

I don't think we need to pretend that disappointment never happens. I think it's about affirming in one's heart that the rewards of love always outweigh the risks of hurt.

I don't know that there is much here to live for without love, in all its forms. It doesn't mean that it is easy to find, or maintainable without heartbreak sometimes. But it's a way of life to commit to -- to live with an open heart -- that's better than the alternative.

Not opening up may seem safe, but it's internal suicide of degrees, and I think it is more painful than people actually contemplate. Loneliness on a deep and personal level is its own heartbreak. It's antecedent cause is less specific, but that's not much comfort at 3am when you feel like the world has locked you out and the night's turned cold.

I never get the fears of being hurt as a reason to not try -- I'd never own dogs under that logic. My cocker spaniel dying was agony, but I still got Fidel and Esperanza, even though I know I am going to have to go through their eventual deaths. But in a mortal and imperfect world, there's just no way to isolate yourself from pain, even by disengaging.

Anyway, I hope you find the key to put your happiness primarily within your own grasp. If someone leaves you, and hurts you and behaves badly, to be honest, they aren't worth the salt in your tears.

Take it easy

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you're a really cool, really interesting person, and I'm glad we're friends.

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Give it time dear and some guy will have nice things to say about you.

you're amazing...some guy will come along and realize that.

someone prolly already has...recognizing who it is...is always the hardest part.

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Arg

Nope -- still don't believe that quote!

But that's not why I'm here.

Dude -- I had no idea our boys had a new album in the works.

I'm very, very excited for 3/3 -- every time u2 has an album out, it signals a huge period of transition in my life. I am so excited and wondering what life is ready to deal me this spring.

Oh, wow, I don't remember the last time I've been so all wound up for a new album.

Only time since Atomic Bomb was Dylan's last album.

Oh wow.

so ready for a tour too

I'm positively GIDDY

you = tall girl!!

on the NIN website, he's promised us a (belated) holiday present...methinks it might be a new album

Thank you for the kind words. Hope you're enjoying your New Year's Eve and have a wonderful year to follow.

Your right we all record happenings in our lifes in different ways. Your far too hard on yourself. Life is about forgiving yourself and moving on. You need to give yourself more praise because you've come along way. Happy New Years.

what movie? also, Sprite. because it is classic.

I used to enjoy a lime flavored soda that is no longer produced. It tasted like a lime slushy but was a carbonated liquid. For the life of me, I cannot remember the name.

Alas, Mos Def was unable to capture Ford Prefect, thus I cannot crush on him. Ruffalo? Yes, that one I perfectly understand.

It's funny, I was just wondering whether or not to renew my membership in February. I sure feel less involved with the site, my lady who I met on here hardly ever has the time to log on here. and I go through long periods of being quiet in my journal (the byproduct of happiness, I think, actually),

But, along with a couple of other people, it would be worth it be on here just to see how you are getting on. I reckon that you and I have been SG friends since nearly the time you joined -- brought together in friendship by Bono and the u2 group -- and I've enjoyed your journal writing as much as anything on here. So, I hope you stick around.

I love reading your stuff, and, maybe more than that, if I have something that feels important to write about in my journal, I always look forward to hearing your views on what I'm saying. It's very cool to have people whose opinion you truly respect able to access your thoughts and opine on them, and your opinion is one that I very much respect.

Merry Christmas -- and try stouffers french bread pizza, I just made some, and if I needed to gain weight I'd probably keep that and a plate of gnocchi nearby all the time!

Greetings,

Merry Christmas to you. Sounds like your Cave poster is of the single off of Murder Balleds. I believe the track is "Henry Lee". By far Dig Lazerus Dig is album of the year for me. I look forward to reading what your top picks are. I remember we were both huge fans of Mr. Clayton. I'm glad they told Rubin where to shove it. His work hasn't been so good lately. Have you picked up the Eno/Byrne cd? Well, hope all is well & you need to remember when things are looking grey that in a few months the U2 cd will be out.

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most excellent portfolio!

I've got my facebook profile to friends only so that helps a bit, but not totally. The whole thing started waayyy before I even could have put the SG page on my profile anyway.

It's not so much that people know I'm a fan of the site that's the issue since I really don't care about my classmates knowing that. Just the fact that people are judging me from it without at least taking a few seconds to wither go on the site or go into wikipedia and look it up. Bah. Though I'm probably better off without those kinds of people in my life.

Though the whole thing has me wondering what will I end up doing should something like that happen again later in life - I really don't want SG mixing with my professional life. It's something that I will have to wait and see what happens.

Sorry to hear about Lianne, glad you got the call from her mum.

Good luck with the internship, and erm, the election!

btw, your Flickr pictures are awesome great colours, and contrasts in all the portraits - I only ever seem to take landscapes, and people in any of mine, more than often look like they have stepped into the photo like a deer in the headlights.

It says something about the love in her family that they used a picture from her last photoset.

It's hard to explain life--or death--sometimes. I was and still am shocked at how prophetic her last journal was.

i thought it might help.

it's all could think of.

be well.

sorry to hear about the loss

Wow, she was only 22. Life is so short.

You create a lot of really neat stuff.

I heard you guys got hit pretty hard by Ike, how're you all doing?