keithmichael

Sometimes i don't really know why i feel the way i do. I was fine up until about 20 minutes ago and the oh so familiar sense of sadness hit me from nowhere. I just don't get it, i guess it's most likely due to the fact that i once again began to reminisce about the past and it's so weird i know it'll hurt me and i still think about it, it just does not really make sense. I just want happiness so badly, i have always thought myself a decent person i am the kind of guy that even though i don't have much to give i will still give people all i have and treat them the best i can and i just wish for once i would get that back. I have decided that i want love but it is difficult when there is no-one around wants to give you that i have tried meeting people i have tried every means i can fathom but it just seems to confirm the fact that i am a flawed creature and happiness could allude me forever and the prospect of that that shakes me deeply. Meh, i guess i might just be one of those people destined to never be happy.