thinking of tomorro..
when my essay will be done
and i will be drinking with good friends
and i will be going home and celebrating there too
right now im finding it hard to keep my eyes open this week i have had to write 11,270 words.. and im not even joking
its not even for my dissertation its for cource work.
i have had about 10 hours sleep all week im surviving on raisins and my smoothie that is about to run out
i have the worst headache over
the worst thing is im writing bollox just to get this essay in and i no im gonna fail but right now i couldnt care less i just want to get it in.
i guess it is all my fault i spoke to my friend sam on msm for 4 hours as its been so so long since we spoke he makes me laugh so much i love people like that, people you can just pick up the fone to and chat to about shit all but still laugh and they still make you smile.
i have very few friends that i can do that with but with the ones i can.. i fucking love especially akemi that girl can make me smile no end and we chat about shit and its just funny, i cant wait to see her again when i go back home
next week im seeing the spice girls in cologne. germany im so excited and i dont care what anyone says about me being sad for liking them. i no i will end up crying, wishing i was 8 again and i will be singing along, and i will look to my left and there will be emma singing with me , and then we will smile, and realise this is not going to happen ever again.
A lot of friends have left me recently and it has been such a shock and has really got to me
my good friend emma is moving to america to live with her fiance, my friend katie has moved to france and another friend has gone travelling around the world, i know our paths will meet again, but right now im just hurting. its hard to find good friends and when you do you dont want to let them go, thats why half of me i scared about going home for christmas, will i have anyone to hang out with? will anyone even notice im back
i fucking hope they do
x
when my essay will be done
and i will be drinking with good friends
and i will be going home and celebrating there too
right now im finding it hard to keep my eyes open this week i have had to write 11,270 words.. and im not even joking
its not even for my dissertation its for cource work.
i have had about 10 hours sleep all week im surviving on raisins and my smoothie that is about to run out
i have the worst headache over
the worst thing is im writing bollox just to get this essay in and i no im gonna fail but right now i couldnt care less i just want to get it in.
i guess it is all my fault i spoke to my friend sam on msm for 4 hours as its been so so long since we spoke he makes me laugh so much i love people like that, people you can just pick up the fone to and chat to about shit all but still laugh and they still make you smile.
i have very few friends that i can do that with but with the ones i can.. i fucking love especially akemi that girl can make me smile no end and we chat about shit and its just funny, i cant wait to see her again when i go back home
next week im seeing the spice girls in cologne. germany im so excited and i dont care what anyone says about me being sad for liking them. i no i will end up crying, wishing i was 8 again and i will be singing along, and i will look to my left and there will be emma singing with me , and then we will smile, and realise this is not going to happen ever again.
A lot of friends have left me recently and it has been such a shock and has really got to me
my good friend emma is moving to america to live with her fiance, my friend katie has moved to france and another friend has gone travelling around the world, i know our paths will meet again, but right now im just hurting. its hard to find good friends and when you do you dont want to let them go, thats why half of me i scared about going home for christmas, will i have anyone to hang out with? will anyone even notice im back
i fucking hope they do
x
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you still coming over on friday? would really like to seeeee you!