keegan

Everyone can forget about my last optimistic blog as I am very, very sad today. My boi and I can't seem to get along ever since he came back from his last trip....we have fought every day about something or other and we hardly ever fight....I'm am tired of talking and I love to talk....it appears as though we are having the same discussion without getting anywhere.

Today we fought about my health...I know he means well but he is always harping on me about the million of things I need to do to get better. The list is long (see massage therapist/chiropractor/doctor/naturopath/head shrink/personal trainer on a regular basis, don't forget to do cardio 5 days a week/40 minutes per day, not to mention weekly yoga classes, and try to maintain this stupid cleanse that doesn't allow me to eat anything any regular person considers delicious) so sometimes I'm good and sometime I fall off the wagon, having someone remind me that I'm not disciplined is just to much to handle....I'm trying the best I can....he makes me feel like I'm a terrible person for not trying harder.

I told him I was done talking b/c I've cried more than I'd like to admit in the last few days, so he left. I'm not sure where he went but now I find myself staring out of the window waiting for him to come back.

So, so depressed....why does love have to be so hard on my heart?