keegan

I feel oh so volatile this week, I'm almost ripped my boi a dozen new assholes in the last five days (no fault of his unless you (like I) thinks he should be able to read my mind).

I've bawled for the last four days straight, sometimes half way through I forget what I'm sad about, I've also been really angry, like grinding teeth angry....whoa! I'm not even an angry person. My analyst (yes, people I have a therapist, a lovely yet intense women) thinks its a sign, even a good one. I developed a bad habit early on, and that was to go numb whenever I felt threatened....now instead of checkin' out, I'm freakin' out. The ironic thing is that I, myself am studying to be a head shrink....those who can't teach I guess