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I'm not totally sure if this belongs here. But i've been left with my thoughts all day since I have today off and i'm waiting on my older sister to get here so we can get some food and see a movie.
Approximately this time last year my life was changing completely. I was going through ups and downs, moving to a new place and starting fresh. Granted, I was very unhappy with many things where I was at the time but its strange how much everything changed. The place I used to call home isn't my home anymore. The people I called Family aren't my family anymore. I don't belong there. It only hurts because I felt like I belonged SO MUCH. I said goodbye to all my animals, I fit whatever I could in my car and just left. Even though I felt crowded at times, like I didn't have my own space, I miss it because I always had someone to turn to, I always had something to do or someone to hang out with. Now I spend my days working, or sitting at home smoking now that I am without transportation. So yes, sometimes I miss the place that I once hated.
Even though there are things I miss. It comes and goes quickly. I have my own place now, I pay for my own shit, I don't have to worry about anyone else's problems, I do what I want on my own time. I'm 21 and selfish as fuck and for once it's okay and nobody can tell me I should change my ways.
February will mark one year since I was last at school. A one semester only break has officially turned into a year long break. I should be graduating this summer, and if all went according to my plans, I should be in Tennessee this fall. Its only a little frustrating because I know first hand that nothing always goes as planned, so I'm accepting everything. It'll happen, just at a slower pace. Hopefully.
I need a car SO BAD. Anything that runs would be dandy. When I was about 15, I helped my foster dad rebuild a 67 Corvair. She was the LOVE OF MY LIFE. I wanted her so bad, but he sold her for a pretty penny and being 15, I couldn't buy a car. I named her Suzy and she looked pretty much like this when we finished: 
I want one. Or, a 1970 Chrysler New Yorker.
As much as I am a major fan of older cars, this Bugatti gives me a cargasm every time I see it:
And last but definitely not least, my dream car that I plan on birthing:
Well, I think i've geeked myself out enough with this today.
Oh and guess what? I got my nipples pierced.
EDITED: 7:44 PM
i'm getting miraculously high before spending time at a bar with work people.
I saw a chick flick today. "turns out.. i'm a little bit of a slut."
Smoking
Smoking
Smoking
I'm wearing a skirt
I also love the Corvair. Air cooled engine in the rear
Well, feel free to smoke your brains out and be as selfish as you please, there is never anything wrong with concerning yourself before others. You must get somewhere before you worry about getting someone else somewhere first