kedavra

And I present to you: A moment of apathy.


Send out the morning birds to sing of the damage
Now that the calm's returned, I know I can't manage
You're standing in my doorway, though he's asleep in my bed
The steady murmur, always in my head..
You're the finest thing that I've done, the hurricane I'll never outrun
I could wait around for the dust to still, but I don't believe that it ever will.
And since the roof fell in, I'll lean on what matters
Caught in the slightest wind, everything else unravels
You're standing in my doorway seven cities ago
The days are racing, but you come back too slow..


There's a reasoning behind this. But at the moment, I don't want to explain.


Oh yes, and to add. I am kind of pissed that I text my *ex* and asked him what my chances were of getting my cat, Monster, back. He replied a day later and in the middle of the night, "you'll have to fight me for her." I fucking saved that cat and rescued her life! I found her on the hood of my car in a box with another kitten and neither of them looked like they had much life left in them. I gave the other to an animal shelter and kept Monster because she seemed stronger. I miss my cat, I want her.

I want all my puzzle pieces to fit together again. I hate not knowing what exactly is going on in my life, big or small. I do not like being left in the dark. I have a strong dislike for tension. And despite everything, I want Almost_Retarded here again.

goodnight.