kebabski

oh my god i'm such a dumbass. i got offered another job while i was at this place and it pays more to do the same thing (bar crap) so i'm doing that. but i don't start til december. i'm bored. at least i'm home and with friends but i feel like a hell loser cos i'm not doing anything. and i rang craigie to get my job back and they were like 'we'll get back to you" then i remembered i was looking for jobs before i quit there cos i hated it then didn't answer when they rang me back. now i still don't have a job until december. oh well, i dropped in resumes today at places. if i get a job here i'll do that instead maybe. aargh i wish i wasn't such a quitter
or at least thought things out before i got all aargh.
and stupid boy that i like you are stupid. you know who you are. stupid head. my mum asked if i wanted the paris hilton perfume and i was like pfft if i wanted to smell like a dog i'd go roll around with mine. which i do anyway. why am i such a commitment phobe? why would i rather be shagging some DUMB high school kid then trying anything with an actual person. great. i'm not even a depressing person, its hard to get me moody, and yet i'm still noticing what a fuck up full of nothing my life is now