kebabski

grr. toby rang this morning, silent number, and had a go at me.
he went back to michelles tues night, now he regrets it and wonders why i let stuff go to shit between us and he wants to see me. FUCK
i just hung up and ignored him calling back. i'd just been to yoga (yay i got up in the morning BY CHOICE) and he rang me just after i got home about 1230ish which i could check on my phone if i hadn't erased the time from it just like i've erased all his messages cos if i don't i read them obsessively.
dude nothing even happened with us really and it was all based on looks and we had nothing to talk about but he was so hot. and he got mad at me for 3am visits and phonecalls. and what did he expect to accomplish with this phonecall? i'd go yay for the feelings you have that inspired you to ring me and yell at me until i want to see you? FUCK HIM he is so games games games
now i feel like shit which even cold rock icecream with lonny didn't fix. i love that place.i think i feel shit cos i thought 2 months of flirting would culminate in more than this. i'm so stupid