kazrael

I've been pondering a bit lately about meeting new people. Not just the everyday new acquaintances, but people who really are likely to matter in your life somewhat.

It seems to me that when getting to know one of these people I'm creating two new people. One is filling in the picture of who the new person is and the other is the new version...
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Yeah, degenerate scumbag. Awesome...

What curious oscillations of late. Pursue the life of a degenerate scumbag? Might be fun to make use of my current place in the world to take advantage of some classmates, but that's not really my style unless everyone involved is being taken advantage of equally.

Then of course there's the ultimate pendulum swing in the other direction. Two doors down and very much not...
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It always seems harder for me to write when things are going well. The more I'm engaging classes that feel like truly upper level challenges (which my first major lacked), the more my confidence builds for graduate school. I'm still lacking much of the context that people around me refer to, but I also feel like I pick up on the deeper levels of the...
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Weird weird weird, to have a wall around my family.

For once my father is the most open person from that world and it creeps me out.

I've never felt like I belonged in my "hometown", but this is a whole new level. Even the places I once called home feel separate and distinct from myself. 'You can't go home again' eh? True enough, especially...
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Wow do I ever weave circles of words after a few beverages. Of course I do plenty of that sober as well, but naturally it gets worse.

Ah, the cusp of the new year and the possibilities it brings. One of the redeeming qualities of the holiday really, the persistent images of hope and possibility. Wondering what's to come and seeing brighter days ahead. This...
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Curiosities abound this evening.

Society vs a Friend. Which do you choose?

Pre-situation I would have chosen quickly and easily. Given the situation I did as well, but opposite my expectations. I counseled against society in a vile a reprehensible way. I know I'll be forgiven, after all I'm protecting a friend.


Then comes one of the many times I wish I had more than...
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Strange to have this particular brand of tired back in my life. I thought I'd left it far far behind.

Sometimes old acquaintances ought to be forgot...

I love the quote "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans" and it's odd to find myself actually in the business of making long term plans, it's not really how I operation. Moving...
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Well, what does one do when he realizes that a good portion of the cause of his recent scathing mood is due to the loss of something he took care not to invest himself in knowing it wouldn't last?

To be a little less LJ; I realized yesterday, while seething at the genius that developed this week's bus schedule, that the pseudo-relationship/summer fling deal I'd...
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When, it's a horse of course, of course, we have a chance to post some new information.

But, perhaps not.

So a flash of lightning wakes me out of a deep dead sleep and a very strange dream.

Then the incredibly loud boom crushes my limited consciousness.

Needless to say (and yet I am, huh), I was very confused.

In and out, rockin about, weeeee.