haven't been writing in journals much lately maybe I should. it might help .. who knows.
In the past I was annoyed that girls would come to me only when they felt down and out, or lonely or hurt and then disappear as I was getting attached because I had made them feel better, and they had found another boy to occupy them. Now I'm fairly comfortable, I get to have a real effect on other peoples lives and can be flirty and connect to special emotions that are just for them, make them feel appreciated and like they are great people, or at least let them know that others can see them that way. I love that I can be honest with them, say what I mean in a very specific way, let my self see them in a very specific way.
Recently I started talking to this truly amazing girl that I know for Uni. She has these magnificent eyes, and though I thought she was cute and all never had any interest in her until I saw her dance.. It's never really been a mutal thing. but I've never been afraid to tell her just how amazing she is.. I guess Valentines was hard on her today, but I made sure to mention how amazing she was.. it was neat knowing that it's appreciated.
I also let my gf know today that I lover her today. But she hasn't made much fan fair about it, she is deep in work on a project for school. It's neat knowing that I can go out of my way to make a girl other then my gf feel very special and I can do all those things I love doing with other girls still because I know that these girls are going to disappear eventually when I've made them feel better, and thus I'm not worried about having issue with my gf.. though I know she is going to and has been jealous of the way I glow about other girls.. and understandably so... but I'm generally proud of my girlie's. I missing having a wack of them.
In the past I was annoyed that girls would come to me only when they felt down and out, or lonely or hurt and then disappear as I was getting attached because I had made them feel better, and they had found another boy to occupy them. Now I'm fairly comfortable, I get to have a real effect on other peoples lives and can be flirty and connect to special emotions that are just for them, make them feel appreciated and like they are great people, or at least let them know that others can see them that way. I love that I can be honest with them, say what I mean in a very specific way, let my self see them in a very specific way.
Recently I started talking to this truly amazing girl that I know for Uni. She has these magnificent eyes, and though I thought she was cute and all never had any interest in her until I saw her dance.. It's never really been a mutal thing. but I've never been afraid to tell her just how amazing she is.. I guess Valentines was hard on her today, but I made sure to mention how amazing she was.. it was neat knowing that it's appreciated.
I also let my gf know today that I lover her today. But she hasn't made much fan fair about it, she is deep in work on a project for school. It's neat knowing that I can go out of my way to make a girl other then my gf feel very special and I can do all those things I love doing with other girls still because I know that these girls are going to disappear eventually when I've made them feel better, and thus I'm not worried about having issue with my gf.. though I know she is going to and has been jealous of the way I glow about other girls.. and understandably so... but I'm generally proud of my girlie's. I missing having a wack of them.