People always say "Tell me about yourself", and all I do is sit there and stare at them. I wonder if, in the short 19 years I've been around, if I've already lived my life. I have only few keys events that have happened in my life, some longer or more memorable, but they had an impact none the less.
I was only 7 when my dad retired for the Navy, but I can tell it still lives on in him, in his personality, many probably couldn't understand how this has any effect on me, but this is the personality imprinted on me during my development. Strength, independence, confidence, and an almost cold demeanor have manifested in me. I don't know if I was born a leader, or raised one, but it's a trait that's often recognized, and is seems that the military is the only option.
Gymnastics was probably the longest trial I'll ever have to endure. 10 years of my life, I played the part of the abused puppet. Scolded for speaking, eating, even drinking water without permission, it's a very damaging life. My growth was stunted from the abuse to my body, and the drive to stay thin to avoid the biting comments was painful to the body and mind. You're told to be part of a team, cheer each other on, and give pats on the back, but they're your greatest rivals. Battling them, competing for the few affections the coaches have, even then, little comfort is found when the compliments hide beneath cruelty. I don't regret it. I never have, actually, I have loathed, despised and detested many things about it, but if I hadn't been a gymnast, I wouldn't know discipline, self-reliance, and a very keen sense of judging body language.
To regret would be to deny that -you- adapted to a situation, even not to your liking, that you don't take responsibility for your actions and choices and that you can't accept that this is your reaction, pure and simple. I grew from gymnastics, I grew to appreciate movement, the human body, and the drive of the spirit to work towards a goal, I've become stronger willed and certainly have my pride in check.
Another influence is my keen ability to attract all the wrong sorts of people. When you fall in love easily, it's a dangerous thing. Your heart is always tossed around like a sick game. Since my very first relationship I've been hurt. Cheated on in the higher majority of the relationships I've been in, betrayed by the people I'd come to believe were real friends, I know, there's no escaping pain or hardship, it's life and it's another growing experience, but this much in so short a time? 6 guys have cheated on me. How many serious relationships? 9. I don't much like those odds at all.
Back to the original thought, tell me about yourself. Favorite color? Pets? Sibling? Best friend? I stop and think, how can you determine a best friend? Friends are the people you trust, through thick and thin, do anything for, to hell and back again. How can that be just one person? Or any for that matter? I hardly ever share everything completely. Why? The whole knife in back thing sucks.
I'm a very judgmental and prejudiced person. Most people suggest keeping it to yourself. But why? I should hide who I am, be fake about liking someone, and constantly feel repressed? Right. Got it.
But the thing is, through all this, through all my quirks and problems, I'm still nice. I'm friendly, funny, and usually fun to be around. I don't deal with drama, I don't talk about people behind their backs, and if someone is doing it to me, well, no problem. One less person to care about. People who bring hardship to me life, I drop like an unwanted baby. I'm not dealing with it. I try to be laid back, and yes, I'm pessimistic, why? You're NEVER disappointed. If you expect the worse, then you're either right, or pleasantly surprised. Either way, hardly a losing situation, plus, you're prepared to handle whatever is thrown at you.
So, what are you going to do with your life? I'll tell you when I get there. School and military are really the only options right now. School in hopes of becoming a pharmacist. That means Chemistry Major, Biology minor. Too bad I suck at those and hate everything else. I don't like physics or history, I'm a poor writer (notice the grammar and lack of structure), and I don't want a cubicle job. Not a lot of options. The Navy probably doesn't want a bipolar person stuck at sea for months at a time, and the other branches, well, no thanks. So what to do? Live day to day, eventually the pieces will fall together.
Tell me about yourself. I love photography, usually only portraits and nature, why? Raw human emotion, even if posed, always shines through, in the eyes, the posture, the smile, it's there. Nature can be posed, but you can't change how the petals grew, the colors as they shine in the sun, and how they perfectly flow in the wind. The heights, the colors, the growth patterns, it's raw and beautiful.
Tell me about yourself. My brother is my hero. He used to be a bad boy, even then, he cared about the important stuff, and he cared about me. Now he's in the Navy, he's strong, smart, and so open hearted, but he knows what he wants and how he can achieve it. My mom is one of my favorite people. She's edgy, smart, and very wise, and we get along. She understands me so well, and she supports me even in failure. I love my entire family.
Tell me about yourself. I try to come off as sassy, fun, relaxed. I appreciate even the smallest gestures from the people in my life. I'm vulgar but I can be classy. I'm articulate, but hardly eloquent, and I'm awkward but I make up for it by joking on myself. I don't trust people until I have reason to, but once I do, I'm all in, even though I know I could get hurt. Why? Life isn't easy, but I can withstand being hurt over and over even if it only means finding one or two true to the core friends.
Tell me about yourself. I have wild spurs where I start to write stories or poems, I find random crafts to try (and fail at), I take pictures that I never develop, I play in the rain and cuddle with a stuffed animal at night (or two. Right now I have a little brown down and a big fluffy lamb). I watch the same movies over and over, and I don't like spicy food. I play video games sometimes or read poetry, or just sit and watch the world go by.
Tell me about yourself. I'm 19, and I've lived my life. But not to the fullest. Not yet anyway.
Tell me about yourself. I'm interested in meeting new people of all sorts, so instead, tell me about yourself.
I was only 7 when my dad retired for the Navy, but I can tell it still lives on in him, in his personality, many probably couldn't understand how this has any effect on me, but this is the personality imprinted on me during my development. Strength, independence, confidence, and an almost cold demeanor have manifested in me. I don't know if I was born a leader, or raised one, but it's a trait that's often recognized, and is seems that the military is the only option.
Gymnastics was probably the longest trial I'll ever have to endure. 10 years of my life, I played the part of the abused puppet. Scolded for speaking, eating, even drinking water without permission, it's a very damaging life. My growth was stunted from the abuse to my body, and the drive to stay thin to avoid the biting comments was painful to the body and mind. You're told to be part of a team, cheer each other on, and give pats on the back, but they're your greatest rivals. Battling them, competing for the few affections the coaches have, even then, little comfort is found when the compliments hide beneath cruelty. I don't regret it. I never have, actually, I have loathed, despised and detested many things about it, but if I hadn't been a gymnast, I wouldn't know discipline, self-reliance, and a very keen sense of judging body language.
To regret would be to deny that -you- adapted to a situation, even not to your liking, that you don't take responsibility for your actions and choices and that you can't accept that this is your reaction, pure and simple. I grew from gymnastics, I grew to appreciate movement, the human body, and the drive of the spirit to work towards a goal, I've become stronger willed and certainly have my pride in check.
Another influence is my keen ability to attract all the wrong sorts of people. When you fall in love easily, it's a dangerous thing. Your heart is always tossed around like a sick game. Since my very first relationship I've been hurt. Cheated on in the higher majority of the relationships I've been in, betrayed by the people I'd come to believe were real friends, I know, there's no escaping pain or hardship, it's life and it's another growing experience, but this much in so short a time? 6 guys have cheated on me. How many serious relationships? 9. I don't much like those odds at all.
Back to the original thought, tell me about yourself. Favorite color? Pets? Sibling? Best friend? I stop and think, how can you determine a best friend? Friends are the people you trust, through thick and thin, do anything for, to hell and back again. How can that be just one person? Or any for that matter? I hardly ever share everything completely. Why? The whole knife in back thing sucks.
I'm a very judgmental and prejudiced person. Most people suggest keeping it to yourself. But why? I should hide who I am, be fake about liking someone, and constantly feel repressed? Right. Got it.
But the thing is, through all this, through all my quirks and problems, I'm still nice. I'm friendly, funny, and usually fun to be around. I don't deal with drama, I don't talk about people behind their backs, and if someone is doing it to me, well, no problem. One less person to care about. People who bring hardship to me life, I drop like an unwanted baby. I'm not dealing with it. I try to be laid back, and yes, I'm pessimistic, why? You're NEVER disappointed. If you expect the worse, then you're either right, or pleasantly surprised. Either way, hardly a losing situation, plus, you're prepared to handle whatever is thrown at you.
So, what are you going to do with your life? I'll tell you when I get there. School and military are really the only options right now. School in hopes of becoming a pharmacist. That means Chemistry Major, Biology minor. Too bad I suck at those and hate everything else. I don't like physics or history, I'm a poor writer (notice the grammar and lack of structure), and I don't want a cubicle job. Not a lot of options. The Navy probably doesn't want a bipolar person stuck at sea for months at a time, and the other branches, well, no thanks. So what to do? Live day to day, eventually the pieces will fall together.
Tell me about yourself. I love photography, usually only portraits and nature, why? Raw human emotion, even if posed, always shines through, in the eyes, the posture, the smile, it's there. Nature can be posed, but you can't change how the petals grew, the colors as they shine in the sun, and how they perfectly flow in the wind. The heights, the colors, the growth patterns, it's raw and beautiful.
Tell me about yourself. My brother is my hero. He used to be a bad boy, even then, he cared about the important stuff, and he cared about me. Now he's in the Navy, he's strong, smart, and so open hearted, but he knows what he wants and how he can achieve it. My mom is one of my favorite people. She's edgy, smart, and very wise, and we get along. She understands me so well, and she supports me even in failure. I love my entire family.
Tell me about yourself. I try to come off as sassy, fun, relaxed. I appreciate even the smallest gestures from the people in my life. I'm vulgar but I can be classy. I'm articulate, but hardly eloquent, and I'm awkward but I make up for it by joking on myself. I don't trust people until I have reason to, but once I do, I'm all in, even though I know I could get hurt. Why? Life isn't easy, but I can withstand being hurt over and over even if it only means finding one or two true to the core friends.
Tell me about yourself. I have wild spurs where I start to write stories or poems, I find random crafts to try (and fail at), I take pictures that I never develop, I play in the rain and cuddle with a stuffed animal at night (or two. Right now I have a little brown down and a big fluffy lamb). I watch the same movies over and over, and I don't like spicy food. I play video games sometimes or read poetry, or just sit and watch the world go by.
Tell me about yourself. I'm 19, and I've lived my life. But not to the fullest. Not yet anyway.
Tell me about yourself. I'm interested in meeting new people of all sorts, so instead, tell me about yourself.
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i can't believe that nobody commented on this... you're not a poor writer... i know english majors with less structure and worse grammar... i want to hear one of your short stories...