kauzi

A simple question, asked innocently,
Why do you love me?

My throat tightens
I cant speak
I cant breathe
My heart feels like its going to jump out of my chest
My palms start sweating,
My knees are shaking
My eyes water
My whole world is out of balance, and wavering
Like the buzz from the first morning cigarette, I can hardly stand

Yeahthats why!


Ok, but what do you see in me?

Darkness, deep and empty
So void of light that
You are sure its going to swallow you up.

A loneliness so intense you can feel your mind turn into itself
For the slightest amount of interaction just to prevent
Going completely insane.

The pain in your chest
So immense you want to rip yourself open
Pull out your heart,
Stab it, crush it, burn it
Remove any trace of its existence.


I may not know how to say what I see within you
But I know what I see without you
And its unbearable!