kauzi

WOW! 20 hour day...hot, sweaty, and busted my ass all day, and whats the first thing I do when I get back to the camp, eat? NO! Shower? NO!, relax? NO! I sign on to SG...holy crap this shit is addicting! If I could just figure out what keeps drawing me here, then maybe I could stop it....

Though infinitely finite
I am less philosophical
It feels like summer
But, there is a chill in my heart
Will memories fade
Like ripples from a rock
Tossed into a quiet river
Loves are lost
For whatever reason
The wraiths
Fade into the silent graveyard
Of memories better left alone
Though infinitely finite

Its a good thing nobody reads this...I am soo ready to be home, this 20 days gone 10 days home shit is getting old! 8 more days.........

I reach inside the void,

deep within my mind.

The darkness swallows everything

not sure what I might find.



I feel a key and find the lock,

a twist and the door is open.

A rushing noise, I realize,

my life wont be the same again.



Immediately the thoughts are free,

The hurt, the hate, the rage.

Releasing them is painful,

thats why I built...
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I sit alone inside my mind...

my eyes cant see the sun....

I think of times long since past

when life was much more fun...



Eternal winters cloud my head,

The darkness never ends.

Fighting demons, healing wounds,

somethings time cant mend.



I kneel before the alter

of mistakes that I have made.

I stare in quiet defiance

as the truth cuts like a blade....
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