Confuzzled rant:
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Im totally confuzzled by the fact that I suddenly feel totally okay, as the last two months has been some sort of slow, boring hell. Can depression just disappear like that?
Im sorta annoyed by it, because it makes me feel like I cant do anything about the way I feel. Like it can just hit me again at any moment, and I wouldnt know beforehand, or even realize it happened.
And then Id just have to wait for my body and hormones to give me a good day.
I guess thats a stupid perspective though, I mean I guess theres a reason why it felt bad before, and why it feels okay now.
I mean, I took some time of from life more or less. I gave myself the time to feel all those horrible feelings too.
I gave myself some time to start handling things, and to actually talk about it, and all that.
That makes sence.
Im still scared though, that it will hit me again.
All other frights seem stupid, compared to this. I mean, why should I be afraid of meeting something scary, if I could just handle it. This though, this is about losing controll over yourself, to not have any power to do anything.
Well, I guess once again I should remember what a good friend told me (in swedish, so this is just translated): The important thing is not to never fall, but to rise after every fall. (That doesnt sound like good english, could someone rephrase that for me?)
Anyways, I feel like I have fallen and actually landed in myself again.
Heres a nice lil picture update over what Ive been up to the last few weeks:
well, my friend was bored and wanted me to tell her a story so I made one up. I thought it was funny so i posted it here
how are you lately?
I think batmans dad in batman begins put it best...
"why do we fall, bruce? so we can learn to pick ourselves up."
I do live any ways and I plan on living for a very long time to come still
I'm sorry that you can relate to me about my feelings like that.
I hate seeing such a thing happen to any animal but that's life I guess
Thanks as I can rant a lot but I don't rant out of anger or any thing like that,I just have too much to say about every thing I guess
You take care too