katojoneso

i had a bad wekend.
it was pants.poo poo. shit!
because of this illness it has made my life a fucking misery!
i have some sorta allergic reaction but the docs dont even know what it is they just put me on a load of anti biotics and hoped that it would get better.
the worst thing is that it is on my face aswell as other parts of my body, so i dont just look like a fucking freak ut i cant drink my sorrows away either.
it hasnt got any better ad im off to the docs again tomoz.
went out on friday and it was really shit. everyone in the pub kept riping the piss outta me and it made me feel very low and very iscolated.
my best mate went off with these girls she had been slagging off all week and left me on my own to deal with coked up drunks that i hardly even knew.
thing is she dont have no money and i paid for her to get there and bought her drinks.
its the way pp treat me, i dont know why i let these ppl walk all over me?
all i am is nice to ppl and they always fuck me over.
well anyway,
some guy is pissin my best mate about at the moment.
me nad her broke up with our boyfriends and for me its quite recent but for her its been about a year.
our boyfriends are very muc alike and the split ups were out of the blue.
well, we ended up crying into our handbags about how much we missed and loved them.
my ex boyfriend rung me on valentines day to tell me that he was moving back to devon and leaving to travel for three months.
i met him oin thursday and he was like all over me until i stopped us from going any further.
he said that he didnt want to iss me and all he wanted was.....the obvious how cheap did i feel?
so basically i have taken two steps back from getting over him and i think he is a fucking asshole doing that to me!
so y week and weekend have not been great.
my life is falling apart at the moment and losing the only person i truely loved in my life is going on tuesday.
my face looks disgusting and its so hard to go out and face the outside as ppl judge me as all they see is the marks and scars on the outside they just dont understand how scarred i am on the inside.
i hope everyone is doing ok out there in SG, and i hope and pray for a better week and my face to get better.
from a moaning old fish wife,
kato