katiekat

So....several discussions later, he might actually understand a little. I guess that's good. Part of the agreement is we be ourselves at home as much as possible for a while, then we'll step back and decide if we belong together still. He's really trying (I never stopped trying) and I think it may work. And he says if it doesn't he won't take Dani completely away from me (although the thought of not having her with me always still paralyzes me and makes me want to throw up and cry).

I've realized a big part of my problem is my work. I hate being there, hate the job I do, don't respect the ppl I work with or for. And I bring A LOT of that home. Add on that 2 of my most influential co-workers are trying to run me off (at least that's how it seems and not just to me).... I dread being there. Every single day I work, no matter what, I dread it.

In other news please keep little Chase in your thoughts and prayers. He's the cousin's 2 yr old son w/ heart problems. The latest heart cath (done Thurs) didn't reveal good news. Right now they're giving him 2 weeks to 2 months. All of which just makes me cling to Dani even tighter.

I wish I had some happy happy joy joy to share but that's not part of my life right now and as I've said before, this is where I can be me, the real me, and happy just isn't me at this point.