katelyn

I just need to remember how this feels. I haven't gone to bed yet (but that's beside the point) and it is 6:30 am.... I can't really remember the last time I was up this early...intentionally. I just went for a walk and it was so... wonderful. I loooooooove the way everything looks this early. Everything is beautiful in this light. So I know I must be beautiful in this light too... and I don't usually consider myself as such. But everything else is... so this will be where I find myself beautiful. Only here, only at 6:30 am. In this light. I'm sitting on our balcony right now, just because I'm not ready to go back in yet. The air is cool and crisp and it just reminds me of going to work with my mom. It was the summer before eighth grade or freshman year. She owned a gym for a little while and one summer I went to work with her almost everyday. We'd have to get up around this time....I loved it. I miss it so much still. Just riding in the car with her, we'd talk, sometimes we'd stop off and get cappucinos. I miss that. It was probably one of my best summers...but I always take it for granted. Anyway... today, in some weird way, I'm almost back there. Also, I got a sense of what it felt like when we first moved here. I sort of miss that too. The new-ness. I need to make this a more frequent thing, because I adore this feeling. I adore this light, the air, the birds. It's all perfect and perfectly undisturbed. There is a car or two... it is a city after all... but it's a nice break from the usual. Maybe if I can remember how this feels, I can be motivated enough to get up this early in the morning and go for a walk. It'd be nice...