I spent last week here:
Not pleasant.
40cm of my large intestine are covered in ulcers. Sexy eh?
Im sure youre here to see b00bs, but thats what youre getting today.
Well, Im finding it hard to figure out what to do next...when I get sick, I cant do anything and cant earn any money....so I get stressed, and then I get sick...and the whole cycle continues. I know that my body is telling me something needs to change in the way I deal with stress and life, so why is it so hard to do?
I know to break the cycle I need to relax- stop taking so much on and work on my own things in a disciplined and calm way...but how can I do that when theres just *so* much to think about?
I have my art, my band, my saw stuff, my part time cinema job....but none of them are enough to pay living costs. And theres the fear that the illness will come back. Which it has. Ten-fold.
I think writing this helps me make sense of it, so forgive the livejournal-esque nonsense.
Sooo, positivity then:
-Today is my first morning waking up in my own bed, without being prodded by a nurse, and its beautiful outside, so I think I should start getting ready to leave the house or something....if I can.
-Whilst I was in hospital I read a few books. I didnt draw. Couldn't.
But I did read in one book about circus skills how magicians saw a woman in half onstage. Its so obvious, and Im not sure Im glad I know....but I do now, so maybe I could learn to do it for an act. Heh.
-The night before I had to go in to hospital, I recorded a version of 'Circus' by Tom Waits. Spoken word, toy piano, samples & saw. You can listen to it here and buy it for a dollar if you like, knowing it will go to a good cause....getting me to the NYC Musical Saw Festival this July.
Much-needed creative escape.
Im going to go and attempt a walk by the sea.
Kate
xo
Not pleasant.
40cm of my large intestine are covered in ulcers. Sexy eh?
Im sure youre here to see b00bs, but thats what youre getting today.
Well, Im finding it hard to figure out what to do next...when I get sick, I cant do anything and cant earn any money....so I get stressed, and then I get sick...and the whole cycle continues. I know that my body is telling me something needs to change in the way I deal with stress and life, so why is it so hard to do?
I know to break the cycle I need to relax- stop taking so much on and work on my own things in a disciplined and calm way...but how can I do that when theres just *so* much to think about?
I have my art, my band, my saw stuff, my part time cinema job....but none of them are enough to pay living costs. And theres the fear that the illness will come back. Which it has. Ten-fold.
I think writing this helps me make sense of it, so forgive the livejournal-esque nonsense.
Sooo, positivity then:
-Today is my first morning waking up in my own bed, without being prodded by a nurse, and its beautiful outside, so I think I should start getting ready to leave the house or something....if I can.
-Whilst I was in hospital I read a few books. I didnt draw. Couldn't.
But I did read in one book about circus skills how magicians saw a woman in half onstage. Its so obvious, and Im not sure Im glad I know....but I do now, so maybe I could learn to do it for an act. Heh.
-The night before I had to go in to hospital, I recorded a version of 'Circus' by Tom Waits. Spoken word, toy piano, samples & saw. You can listen to it here and buy it for a dollar if you like, knowing it will go to a good cause....getting me to the NYC Musical Saw Festival this July.
Much-needed creative escape.
Im going to go and attempt a walk by the sea.
Kate
xo
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mantis:
Get well soon. This reminded me of you http://tv.gawker.com/#!5783945/woman-in-subway-plays-original-star-trek-theme-with-a-saw
yesenia:
from the photos i saw, it was a wild party! it was right before sam came to the u.s. for 6 months. we met a year before that when he came to orlando with his family. who is your brother?