"last night sentiments"
well its almost that time again. time to pack and clean up. time to gather my things together and move. i can't exactly say i'm sad that i'm leaving cincinnati, but i am sad that i'm leaving behind my friends. i've seen so few of the people i grew up with. i've seen no one from princeton this summer. yeah i may have talked to them online, but its different from being in person. i think this was a summer of massive transition for me, i honestly do. i looked up old people i haven't talked to in years and i've let go of people that just weigh me down. the fact that i may not even see most of the friends i made last year doesn't even bother me. it just happens you know. i'll keep the friends i want to keep. oddly enough, the only thing i'm really sad about is that i'm not going to see the girls at the vu for a long time. its kind of odd, but i've developed an attachment of the sorts to them. goofy antics with lilith, talks with isis, and just being around athena... call me weird and sentimental and whatever. i'm going to miss those girls, and not because of what they did, but for who they were. its sad that i'm leaving cincinnati when i started to like it again. every thing has been as close to perfect as they can be. but i need to leave. i just need to leave because its that time.
this is the most beautiful piece of writing i've read in a very long time. it reminds me of the word "home." it comes from the journal of mary...
"this moment, it is the last bit of dusk and from my old wide windows i watch the west hills light up with amber electrical stars and the neighbor across the street in the second floor apartment is peeling that gross clear fatty layer off a chicken breast hes obviously planning to have for dinner. the shopping cart lady is loudly wheeling away the bottles and cans from my building's recycling bin and mumbling to herself. swami is napping under the couch and i am waiting for my tea water to whistle."
on a side note, today was my last free night in cincinnati. nick and i went for an early dinner at red lobster after smoking a bowl. we then drove downtown to pay our homage to a place were we grew up a lot... the old club head. we were saddened to see if refurbished, but i guess its all for the better. we then talked to mr. zimmerman about his store front and found out that too was going to be taken down soon. i was very sad to hear something that has become a legend in our circles was going to be removed. after talking to some other peopld down there, we decided to head up to mt. adams to take some pictures. the lighting was perfect, but people were climbing on the the scenery and ruined the picture. slightly defeated, nick and i decided it would be awesome to go to newport for some gameworks action. we then spent the next hour earning 2585 tickets which we traded for 21 hacky sacks and a martini shaker. once we got back to anderson, we did what we usually do, throw fireworks out the window and into people's mail boxes. after getting brett, we smoked a few bowls in the shed before going to the vu. right when we sat down, athena comes up to me and starts to talk to me. it was really cute because she was really hyper and excited. we talked about movie (return to oz) and forming a band (The Lawn Gnomes). she danced along to some of the songs being played and talked some more. she went away and i got a dance from isis and talked to her for a bit. we then moved to the front row to watch isis dance... she payed special attention to us. right before we had to leave, i got a 2 for 1 dance with athena. as always it was very nice. she even wore her glasses for me. after brushing a cold and pierced nipple against my cheek, she kissed me and gave me smile and giggle that i wish with all my heart was real. we were so close, we were closer then i've really been with any other girl that i cared about. but its her job to instill those thoughts in my mind. and after it was done and over with, we hugged our last hug for who knows how long. and warm and tight embrace. afterwards we left and once again i was lost in thought. we dropped brett off before my own drop off. the rest of this night was mostly spent IMing jonelle and peter. i've been thinking a lot tonight... and i'm lonely.
"i just feel lonely in a way that hanging out with friends can't cure."
i will leave my best friends to return to my best friends. i get sad and i move on. and now i'm back to where i started. but this is the end.
well its almost that time again. time to pack and clean up. time to gather my things together and move. i can't exactly say i'm sad that i'm leaving cincinnati, but i am sad that i'm leaving behind my friends. i've seen so few of the people i grew up with. i've seen no one from princeton this summer. yeah i may have talked to them online, but its different from being in person. i think this was a summer of massive transition for me, i honestly do. i looked up old people i haven't talked to in years and i've let go of people that just weigh me down. the fact that i may not even see most of the friends i made last year doesn't even bother me. it just happens you know. i'll keep the friends i want to keep. oddly enough, the only thing i'm really sad about is that i'm not going to see the girls at the vu for a long time. its kind of odd, but i've developed an attachment of the sorts to them. goofy antics with lilith, talks with isis, and just being around athena... call me weird and sentimental and whatever. i'm going to miss those girls, and not because of what they did, but for who they were. its sad that i'm leaving cincinnati when i started to like it again. every thing has been as close to perfect as they can be. but i need to leave. i just need to leave because its that time.
this is the most beautiful piece of writing i've read in a very long time. it reminds me of the word "home." it comes from the journal of mary...
"this moment, it is the last bit of dusk and from my old wide windows i watch the west hills light up with amber electrical stars and the neighbor across the street in the second floor apartment is peeling that gross clear fatty layer off a chicken breast hes obviously planning to have for dinner. the shopping cart lady is loudly wheeling away the bottles and cans from my building's recycling bin and mumbling to herself. swami is napping under the couch and i am waiting for my tea water to whistle."
on a side note, today was my last free night in cincinnati. nick and i went for an early dinner at red lobster after smoking a bowl. we then drove downtown to pay our homage to a place were we grew up a lot... the old club head. we were saddened to see if refurbished, but i guess its all for the better. we then talked to mr. zimmerman about his store front and found out that too was going to be taken down soon. i was very sad to hear something that has become a legend in our circles was going to be removed. after talking to some other peopld down there, we decided to head up to mt. adams to take some pictures. the lighting was perfect, but people were climbing on the the scenery and ruined the picture. slightly defeated, nick and i decided it would be awesome to go to newport for some gameworks action. we then spent the next hour earning 2585 tickets which we traded for 21 hacky sacks and a martini shaker. once we got back to anderson, we did what we usually do, throw fireworks out the window and into people's mail boxes. after getting brett, we smoked a few bowls in the shed before going to the vu. right when we sat down, athena comes up to me and starts to talk to me. it was really cute because she was really hyper and excited. we talked about movie (return to oz) and forming a band (The Lawn Gnomes). she danced along to some of the songs being played and talked some more. she went away and i got a dance from isis and talked to her for a bit. we then moved to the front row to watch isis dance... she payed special attention to us. right before we had to leave, i got a 2 for 1 dance with athena. as always it was very nice. she even wore her glasses for me. after brushing a cold and pierced nipple against my cheek, she kissed me and gave me smile and giggle that i wish with all my heart was real. we were so close, we were closer then i've really been with any other girl that i cared about. but its her job to instill those thoughts in my mind. and after it was done and over with, we hugged our last hug for who knows how long. and warm and tight embrace. afterwards we left and once again i was lost in thought. we dropped brett off before my own drop off. the rest of this night was mostly spent IMing jonelle and peter. i've been thinking a lot tonight... and i'm lonely.
"i just feel lonely in a way that hanging out with friends can't cure."
i will leave my best friends to return to my best friends. i get sad and i move on. and now i'm back to where i started. but this is the end.