karnallust

So this is awesome and I thought I would share it with everyone. I almost died last night. Alcohol poisoning. Apparently an entire bottle of jager in shot form with Steel Reserve chasers aren't supposed to mix. I literally stopped breathing....No more drinking for awhile...I don't remember anything. I feel like shit today though. Hey, little fun fact: going into shock sucks balls.

I'm so tired. Working two jobs and trying to find time to have a life. My average day lately is this:
Wake up at 5:15am to get to work by 6am, work at first job until 4pm. By 7pm must be at second job until midnight. Again wake up at 5:15am. And my second job is a dancer at a showclub out here. I'm sore...
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So I finally have connected with my inner bitch and I'm lovin it! (31 days of sobriety) I finally don't care and I'm finally free. I have nothing to hold me back or tie me down and I will fight for my rights as said bitch!!

So we are having a grand blow out of a party, calling it One Last Stand. It's on June 26th, for more details and if you are trully interested email me!

YAY! I start stripping tonight at The Bunny Ranch y'all! And on Monday I start cocktailing at TDs!!!! Go me! I am Malibu Barbie in Stripper Mode!

I have finally decided that I really, trully want to have sex with a chick. I decided this surrounded by 19 senior citizens.

Soooo.....House is finally sold! I am finally getting out of this tiny shithole, moving right on up to the mouth of hell! YAY! Uh huh! Go me! Tiny circles, big circles!

Oh my god....I am soooooo exhausted.....I have spent these last three days packing up my house non-stop to get the hell out by May 4th......I need coffee.....and a cupcake......and a nice laugh.......and coffee.....

Smashed.

Shattered to pieces,

drenched in vodka,

tears stinging fresh.

Drowning in an arid wasteland.

Blanket of deceit

wrapping, smothering,

closing eyes wide open.

Trembling lips

disguising cries of shame

and sorrow.

The bluest of eyes

bitten by heroin's lies

and inside, again I die...

Only he can crush,

blows hammering home

identify a past,

with no future.

Mourning our lost souls

and whole will...
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