Hey hey everybody. I'm almost all packed up to go off to college on Saturday. I burned myself copies of all of my parents cds that I want to take with me. Well, all of them except for Stop Making Sense by the Talking Heads. I'm keeping that one. I'm a bit too attached to it. I listened to it in the crib for Christ's sake.
So yeah. Hurricanes. It all just makes me feel so useless. I feel like if I were the person I really wanted to be I would drop everything, ignore the fact that I would be abandoning my educational obligations, which honestly don't seem like much compared to people dying, and rush down to New Orleans and do everything I can. I'm not going to do that. Instead I am going to give some money to charity to assuage the pain in my soul, and then go on with my life. It makes me more than a little dissiapointed with myself. Already I can see the tendrils of the midlife quagmire reaching out towards me and stealing away my dreams.
And I'll admit it...
I'll admit it..
I really miss my girlfriend. She just lives two hours away now and still I miss her. The really strange thing is I'm too embaressed to tell this to my friends or my brothers or even my SO when she calls every few days, but feel perfectly okay admitting it to thousands (Alright, honestly thousands is a bit high. The few people who occasionally read this journal and the couple who will stumble across while exploring sg) of strangers.
Jesus, between this and the Katrina post it's only so long before I start wearing black rimmed glasses and listening to Dashboard Confessional. I'm disgusted with myself.
Anywho, I still am really excited about going to college. Also, Suicide Girls has introduced me to The Dandy Warhols, Dismemberment Plan, and Pinback, all of whom I really like listening to. Thanks SG.
Cheers,
Ch
So yeah. Hurricanes. It all just makes me feel so useless. I feel like if I were the person I really wanted to be I would drop everything, ignore the fact that I would be abandoning my educational obligations, which honestly don't seem like much compared to people dying, and rush down to New Orleans and do everything I can. I'm not going to do that. Instead I am going to give some money to charity to assuage the pain in my soul, and then go on with my life. It makes me more than a little dissiapointed with myself. Already I can see the tendrils of the midlife quagmire reaching out towards me and stealing away my dreams.
And I'll admit it...
I'll admit it..
I really miss my girlfriend. She just lives two hours away now and still I miss her. The really strange thing is I'm too embaressed to tell this to my friends or my brothers or even my SO when she calls every few days, but feel perfectly okay admitting it to thousands (Alright, honestly thousands is a bit high. The few people who occasionally read this journal and the couple who will stumble across while exploring sg) of strangers.
Jesus, between this and the Katrina post it's only so long before I start wearing black rimmed glasses and listening to Dashboard Confessional. I'm disgusted with myself.
Anywho, I still am really excited about going to college. Also, Suicide Girls has introduced me to The Dandy Warhols, Dismemberment Plan, and Pinback, all of whom I really like listening to. Thanks SG.
Cheers,
Ch
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Yeah I sell a book with red road in the title. I spent most of this year reading from the shamanism section, but more biographies than other, one on african shamanisim, and a really different one from sibera about a psych ward doctor. The stuff blows my mind though.
That's awesome. I'm not against hardcore vegans by any means, but we have been wearing leather shoes since 4000 bc and before. I figure as long as you treat the animals remnants with respect , then it's all good. What is the history behind the buffalo skull?
dont know much about my tusk except it was money before the mid 80's, back in the 70s it was fazing out, And mine could have been on a traditional marriage necklace...given to the woman. but i never saw the beads that were on it originally, so i wouldn't know.