karenishra2

I hate losing important people in my world. And I don't even know if i'll actually see her again. The last day we spent with each other i gave her all the strength i could muster to help her get through this. And now i feel so drained. I don't want her to leave. We'll see how things go. I have to suck it up and keep moving. I know that much. But if i fall i might not get back up. At least not for a while.

On the plus side, i haven't done anything stupid because of this. Some of that was will power, part of it was the universe thwarting me. Which isn't a bad thing. I'm glad the universe stopped me. It wouldn't have helped much.

Anyways, on to work. I'll be working hard today.