karenishra2

So today started out kinda shitty. But after work, I talked to my best buddy and got myself straightened out. At least for now. I got to the point again where i can say that the past is just that, the past. And I finally cut the last few connections I have with that past. I closed down my LJ account and deleted even her email addresses. I blocked her on anything else I have online. I can't see anything about her. That's for the best. I realize that i was using all those things to keep in touch with her. I would post shit on LJ because I knew she could read it. Not that she would, but that she could. Part of me wanted to think that if I kept saying how bad I was doing it would make her want to come back. that's not healthy for me. And it won't change the way she feels. If there were anything left, we would still be talking.

Anyway, on to more important matters. I've decided i need to work more on my art again. there are several projects and ideas that i never really followed through on. I want to go back to my Faces of Yggdrasil idea. I just need to be on the look out for good models. We'll see what comes of that. If i can get a hold of the tools, I want to get back to working with metals. I have so many great ideas for updating the look of pagan jewelry. Just because the practice and the faith are centuries old, doesn't mean the jewelry should look that old. The design should reflect the current era. Religion should be adaptable to the trends of the culture. Which is not to be mistaken with faith. But that is a different conversation.

And I'm excited. My mum is going to be up for christmas. It means lots of yummy food for me. I can't wait. I get pie. That's right. PIE!!! it will be delicious. And I get to see my mom and brother. That's almost always good.

Anyways, I have work in the morning. I should get some sleep.