kardez13

1:28amJennifer
hi

1:28amTadashi
how are you

1:29amJennifer
all right, got a sore throat
how are you?

1:29amTadashi
5050
just gotback from UP
which was a awesome movie

1:29amJennifer
not heard of it

1:29amTadashi
Pixar

1:31amTadashi
get this

1:32amJennifer
hmm?

1:32amTadashi
clarissa just sent out a twitter. "today is not the greatest"
so i call her

1:32amJennifer
yeah

1:32amTadashi
i hear her pick up the phone. but it hangs up
so i call back. and nothing

1:32amJennifer
hmmm
well, not sure about that

1:33amTadashi
exactly
i'm kinda pissed
but whatevers...

1:33amJennifer
has she done this before?

1:34amTadashi
never pickup to hang up
you know the sound it makes, when it's shuffled around

1:35amJennifer
yeah
you tried again?

1:35amTadashi
yea
and nothing
so i just sent a txt. ok? you hung up on me because?

1:36amJennifer
okay, well that is all you can do

1:36amTadashi
pretty much

1:36amJennifer
isn't it really early on guam right now?

1:36amTadashi
6pm there
6:40

1:37amJennifer
oh yeah, you're right
maybe bad day at work?

1:38amTadashi
that's why i called after her "today" thing

2:24amTadashi
how's your situation

2:32amJennifer
steady to unstable haha
it's ok, for now

2:32amTadashi
haha

2:32amJennifer
what can we do?

2:32amTadashi
just like mine
it pisses me off
i dont understand, why we can't just ride it out

2:33amJennifer
haha, well you know what i think

2:33amTadashi
thats the ultimate goal...
if that was the case. i would end it today

2:34amJennifer
why?

2:35amTadashi
cause she has a kid
and she doesnt want another

2:35amJennifer
and you do?

2:35amTadashi
i'd like my own down the line

2:35amJennifer
hmm, well don't you think that is kinda a deal breaker?
not to be blunt..
i said teh same to John

2:36amTadashi
what about
that you dont want?

2:36amJennifer
no, i meant to John Bermudes

2:36amTadashi
oh

2:36amJennifer
the kid issue is something

2:36amTadashi
haha
yea
jackie doesnt want
right?

2:38amJennifer
well not exactly
but now she says adopting is ok
but then that is super hard

2:39amTadashi
sometimes the sacrifies go to far
that you lose yourself

2:40amJennifer
yeah
so who is making the sacrifice then?

2:40amTadashi
both are
it's...who's willing to compromise more

2:41amJennifer
have you seriously thought about this issue?

2:41amTadashi
no

2:41amJennifer
didn't you ever watch friends?

2:41amTadashi
hah

2:41amJennifer
with monica and richard?
i get all my life lessons from that show...

2:41amTadashi
dont remember how that ended
HAh
pretty much. it works everywhere

2:42amJennifer
yeah for real

2:42amTadashi
i honestly take my love advice from Eternal Sunshine

2:42amJennifer
well, they didn't stay together
she married chandler
hahaha

2:42amTadashi
ha

2:42amJennifer
well that is a great film

2:42amTadashi
but why did she break up with Rich?

2:42amJennifer
because of the kid thing, he didn't want anymore and she did

2:43amTadashi
ah

2:43amJennifer
and he was saying he would have kids for her but she knew he didn't really ewant to

2:43amTadashi
ah
well it brings me to the movie
they know each others quirks
yet. in the end. they still would rather find out again...rather than end it

2:44amJennifer
yeah, but in a way they forgot all of the real feeling of pain and hardship
hearing about it happening to you is one thing, versus going through it

2:45amTadashi
but they knew every little thing that they're gonna hate about each other
like my situation now

2:45amJennifer
i think perception is limited until you are there
but wanting a kid is not a small quirk, dude

2:45amTadashi
she knows she's gonna be depressed after i leave
true that.
but having a kid, is not there yet.
just because someone says "i will not eat fish", doesn't mean they can't change their mind later on
something can happen. to make them realize, it's worth a shot

2:47amJennifer
well, that is a risk you are going to have to be willing to take

2:47amTadashi
exactly

2:47amJennifer
and also realise that she will feel pressure to have kids even if she doesn't really want to

2:47amTadashi
just because you know 1 ending...doesn't mean a 2nd or 3rd exist
if the pressure is too much. then it's worth ending
the bullshit part. is when the next lover is able to

2:49amJennifer
well, what can you do?

2:49amTadashi
play it out, til the end

2:50amJennifer
it's your call, man

2:50amTadashi
no reason to end a loving relationship,because one doesnt want something in the future

2:50amJennifer
but understand where she's probably coming from

2:50amTadashi
you're still playing yours out right?

2:51amJennifer
well whle i am here
when the next step is figured out we have to make some big decisions
and that is in the next few months

2:51amTadashi
exactly
mine is happening in the next month

2:52amJennifer
i think if i was certain we would not be in the same city living together in the next year or so i would probably end it
that is just me, though
...unless marriage was in the works
you know?

2:53amTadashi
what if you're in different places, and marriage was asked?
living away from each other for at least a year or 2

2:54amJennifer
if i was ready to get married and i thought the person was right, then yes i could make that short term sacrifice for the long term relationship

2:54amTadashi
just not at the moment

2:55amJennifer
i'm not ready yet

2:55amTadashi
yea

2:55amJennifer
i have no idea where i will be

2:58amTadashi
not a believer of "better to have love and lost. then to have not loved at all"

2:59amJennifer
yeah, i mean i wouldn't say i am the latter
dude, i am a total sucker
men are my weakness, for real

2:59amTadashi
Hahahaha
mmmm

3:01amJennifer
seriously
people are addicted to drugs
make them feel better when they are down
i realize now i do the same but boys are my thing

3:01amTadashi
HAH
mmmmk...
tmi.

3:02amJennifer
haha

3:02amTadashi
when did that happen
before 2001 huh.

3:02amJennifer
well you know, i was thinking back to when i have been depressed or bummed about something

3:02amTadashi
or after i mean

3:02amJennifer
it is a nice distraction to like someone or to be in that mode
haha, not sure

3:02amTadashi
mmmm

3:02amJennifer
it's not neccessarily everything or doing all that much
affection, flirtation, etc.

3:03amTadashi
my favorite is the chase

3:03amJennifer
yeah, something else to focus on
anyhow, it is not a good thing to use as a crutch
i wear my heart on my sleeve
or at least, i used to

3:04amTadashi
mmm

3:06amTadashi
i still remember that night

3:07amJennifer
yeah, me too
sorry about that

3:07amTadashi
hahah

3:07amJennifer


3:07amTadashi
you're the one that got away
i kinda do hate for that


3:07amJennifer
dude, you don't want to deal with me!

3:07amTadashi
hahaha
it was worth the risk
it's not like i'm a womanizer
hahah
you still remember it though/
why's that

3:11amJennifer
i dunno, it's memorable

3:11amTadashi
that picture is burned in memory

3:12amJennifer
yeah, i still remember what i was wearing too

3:12amTadashi
haha
nice
i always found it funny. the pics i have of you recently
i've caught sad faces
(totally new subject, not relating to that night)

3:14amJennifer
hmm, maybe

3:15amTadashi
very interesting to know
i did want to bring it up last time. hahahha

3:16amJennifer
they're pensive i guess
i don't know, i was being very moody in those years
really dwelling in that emotion

3:16amTadashi
hah
yea
you were a closed door

3:16amJennifer
pretty much
i am not so open
well, i feel like i am more so lately

3:17amTadashi
really?
didn't seem like it

3:17amJennifer
broody mysterious
but it was growing pains i guess

3:18amTadashi
i knew back then you were a closed door
you opened for a split second. only to shut it again

3:19amJennifer
i think i always wanted someone to figure me out
but that is really a bad thing to do
i've been in victim - saviour relationships and that does not work
i want to be in honest relationships instead

3:20amTadashi
that is always a tough one to find

3:20amJennifer
you think i'm still a closed door?

3:21amTadashi
didn't feel like it
you seemed more happier than last time
before, you were more reserved

3:22amJennifer
good, i'm glad

3:23amJennifer
i feel much older
seems weird, but i do

3:23amTadashi
having your mixed cd was funny
when i took your discs to burn
pretty much all the songs i had before

3:25amJennifer
which songs? i can't remember which

3:25amTadashi
you were gone
and i asked to borrow your cd collection

3:26amJennifer
oh yeah, i remember

3:26amTadashi
blackbird
across the universe
my favorite mistake
ants marching

Ants marching was such a sucker punch
hah

3:27amJennifer
haha, yes classics
why?

3:27amTadashi
it's like...REALLY!
cause that's my look on earth as a whole
my go to song
there's other songs as well

3:28amJennifer
that is a great song

3:28amTadashi
i'm surprised you had that version

3:29amJennifer
i think i downloaded so many songs it was ridiculous

3:29amTadashi
haha
which makes that album nutso
i bet i can find the exact combo somewhere

3:30amJennifer


3:30amTadashi
but your True Love Waits is different
i can't ever find a good copy of the one i had

3:30amJennifer
oh i like that version
even if the quality's not great

3:31amTadashi
there's one with a recorder?
or some lil piano

3:31amJennifer
yeah, such a sad song
pretty much i was living in radiohead songs haha

3:31amTadashi
hahaha
its the best though

3:32amJennifer
yeah, true

3:32amTadashi
when i stumbled onto that one....it was so freaking sad
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wt5pW1JihGM&feature=related
my first experience of the song was this version

3:34amTadashi
this song basically described what we talked about
"i'll drown my beliefs, to have your babies"

3:35amJennifer
there ya go
radiohead pretty much has everything covered

3:38amJennifer
hey, i've got to head out for lunch

3:38amTadashi
k

3:39amJennifer
speak soon
good luck
bye

3:39amTadashi
bye