kamikazekiller

Why does everything have to be so complcated? Today just wasn't a good day for me. Theres just so much I wish to experience, so much I want to do and see. But like most people my age....Im bound by limitations. Dead-end jobs, the run around in education. Theres just so much on my mind and I feel as if theres nobody around that can relate to the way im feeling. I know im not alone, but still this depression is a heavy burden I've been carrying around for a while. It seems as if whenever something good comes along, it gets shot down or blocked by some sort of astronomical obstacle. Same thing goes with my relationships. With every single relationship I've had, I've been cheated on, hurt emotionally, or just plain ignored. Im tired of it. It makes me angry, sad......depressed. But what can I do? Try to make things work? I have and tried, all my efforts were for naught. Try to forgive and forget? I've done that too but somehow I still got screwed over. What I've come to realize is that at the end of the day its how we choose to deal with this adversity that makes us stronger. How we deal with this pressure and how we maintain our positive attitudes define who and what we are. Blogging doesn't help. All it does is swell up emotions that I wish I couldn't feel. I dont like sharing my thoughts like this but I figured since the option is here, I might as well write about it. Well enough with the negativity. Im going to go and cheer myself up! Thanks for "listening" for those that actually took the time out to read this. It's good to get things off of the chest ya know.....especially when you have so much bottled up.