we are what? shells filled with gears and cogs. like this machine that creaks and moans when we force it to do what we want. but as much as we are physical, we are psychological. how we all wish we could know what anyone else is thinking we will never have that power. i guess we must learn to be contempt with that.
i would have to say that i'm having a really hard time cheering myself up lately. my world is turning to shit but i keep grinning because i know frowning will get me nowhere. and i dont want to start the descent down a very long spiral. it was very hard getting back up to where i am now. i do not mean to guilt anyone into anything. because in the end your choice is your choice and no one else can change that. i just feel very scared and helpless right now and its difficult to feel this way and be able to process the problem and troubleshoot a solution. this is shit, i have to stop now.
-k-
i would have to say that i'm having a really hard time cheering myself up lately. my world is turning to shit but i keep grinning because i know frowning will get me nowhere. and i dont want to start the descent down a very long spiral. it was very hard getting back up to where i am now. i do not mean to guilt anyone into anything. because in the end your choice is your choice and no one else can change that. i just feel very scared and helpless right now and its difficult to feel this way and be able to process the problem and troubleshoot a solution. this is shit, i have to stop now.
-k-