Theme : Underoath - Desolate Earth -The End is near
How fucking ironic. the end is near, It's like some random fucking Metaphore.
I feel that my relationship of 3 years is falling away. For some reason i liken it to laying on my bed, right on the edge of the mattress. I can only but stop myself from falling, although perhaps falling is the best option, no?
For some reason, i generally end up taking all things for granted, then i seem genuinely suprised when these things leave me.
I suspect, that i am being played; whether or not there is physical relations between them the hypothetical aspect is enough to destroy me.
Of course, it is doing just that.
I'm reverting back to my pessimistic self right before my own eyes. As much as i try to abstain it doesn't work. I suspect something is going on and i can only manifest on that. I can't get it out of my head, my god i have tried.
To be fair, she has never really done anything to break my trust that hasn't been a direct ramification from something i have done. Not that this means she cheated on me, although my god i suspected she did. But there was no evidence of foul play on her part, although the guy that was involved previously fancied her, i know that much.
Perhaps i am just being paranoid [the more probably option]. Perhaps i'm being fucking gullible. I don't know. I just can't help this.
Do you know?
Please help me..
How fucking ironic. the end is near, It's like some random fucking Metaphore.
I feel that my relationship of 3 years is falling away. For some reason i liken it to laying on my bed, right on the edge of the mattress. I can only but stop myself from falling, although perhaps falling is the best option, no?
For some reason, i generally end up taking all things for granted, then i seem genuinely suprised when these things leave me.
I suspect, that i am being played; whether or not there is physical relations between them the hypothetical aspect is enough to destroy me.
Of course, it is doing just that.
I'm reverting back to my pessimistic self right before my own eyes. As much as i try to abstain it doesn't work. I suspect something is going on and i can only manifest on that. I can't get it out of my head, my god i have tried.
To be fair, she has never really done anything to break my trust that hasn't been a direct ramification from something i have done. Not that this means she cheated on me, although my god i suspected she did. But there was no evidence of foul play on her part, although the guy that was involved previously fancied her, i know that much.
Perhaps i am just being paranoid [the more probably option]. Perhaps i'm being fucking gullible. I don't know. I just can't help this.
Do you know?
Please help me..
awh honnie! i hope you figure it all out, people are tricky especially us women. it sounds to me if you have no evidence be careful where you point your finger, but maybe you should do some investigating of your own.. eh? i hope it all works out for the best because you are way too cool of a guy!!