kaise17

Been out of the marine corps for 3 days and it feels unreal. I feel like a big part of who i was is now gone. I miss the few friends i had there and hope they'll be safe. They were some of the only people who really knew me and i loved them all despite the fact we wanted to kill each other at times. It probably doesn't help that lately i don't really feel connected to anyone and that i'm just going through the motions of being a friend. I guess this happens to everyone who makes a big change in life. I'm doing pretty well so far and don't have a lot of worries. Things don't bug me like they do other people because my perspective is very different. It's weird to explain, i just noticed coming back to my friends place that i still check roofs and try to take a threat assessment on people i see in the street. It's like my brain is split between 2 trains of thought. 1 still on a combat mode, another trying to stay in control and remind me i'm not there anymore. I think i'm going to go take a nap because i feel really exhausted and just burnt out. Take care SG people.


I knew such a thing existed.