I've debated writing this for a little bit now, but I've told a few people and I find the act of telling people to be the hardest part... it's when i feel most vulnerable. So I think it's best to just write up a little blog. and let it be known, I'm scared. I'm really scared. I've spoilered this trigger warning.
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Last August I was experiencing an aching pain n my lower right side near my hip, but deeper then my hip. This pain would happen every once in a while, during my time of the month and go away right after. This happened till December, which is when the pain began happening every period. In February it began happening before my period also, then after also, and as of last month it's happened constant. I've referred to this as my granny hip which I'm sure many of you have heard. In February I saw my primary care about it, telling her it was my hip area, but deeper. she then referred me to a physical therapist. Knowing that the pain doesn't get any better or worse with movement and that the pain was at the time based on my time of the month i knew this would be of no help and ignored it. As it's been hurting non stop two weeks ago I visited my gynecologist to ask her about it. not completely positive of what it could be she decided to set up an ultrasound appointment for me just in case and then we could have a better plan of attack on how to treat it when it came back normal.... well it didnt come back normal. the next day at 9am i got a call from her office, "there appears to be a mass on your right ovary." an MRI and a few blood tests later and...
I have a 4.5 inch by 3.5 inch by 3 inch tumor on my right ovary, which no longer has any working tissue. So both the tumor and the ovary need to go. my left ovary is still fine and dandy, which is good, no early menopause or anything. It's impossible to know if its cancer or not until it is out, but it does not appear to be.
Tomorrow I meet with an oncologist to discuss the plan of attack. I am in extreme pain at this point and with it's size I am beyond scared. I will keep you updated on both my surgery and my recovery times.
Wish me luck, I am beyond scared.