kaikai

On the flight home. Missing everything it seems. I can't seem to be happy in just one place, on one hand I love New York on the other hand London is all new and exciting. They both hold extremely good friends and exciting adventures and I worry that right now I'm going to pick the wrong one. Maybe neither of them is wrong, maybe they're both so right but either way there is a choice here that has to be made. New York is my comfort zone I have a full time job, I have best friends, I have a local Deli where I order the regular, My family is close by, I know how to get everywhere I have to be, I can go out till 5am and feel safe that I won't get mugged, it's my city and I can do things my way. London is all new it holds a future, it has the schools I want to go to, it has adorable little pubs, it has double decker buses you can ride and see the entire city on, it has opportunities for some of the best friends I'll ever meet, it has new families, it has all new places to explore, and people to meet, and it has someone I've cared about more then anyone I've ever met in my entire life.

It all makes me so nervous and at times I've acted weird because of it and I apologize. Just know this is a really hard time In my life and I know I should be looking to the future rather then sticking in my comfort zone, going back to school and getting a solid degree rather then spending my entire life working in a knitting store, even if it is tons of fun.

I miss London, I miss New York and I'm sitting on a plane not sure if I care which direction it flies in anymore.