kaiea

I need to go out and have some fun...Like seriously...>< I hate this feeling of sitting at home with all my friends going out and wasting there lives....I hate the fact that I went to The Pillows concert a few weeks ago with my sister and her friend. We all met a guy there by the name of Derek and hurrah asked for everyones number but mine. Made me sad...Made me think. Is it really that obvious that i'm in a relationship? Is it really that obvious that i'm a super lame sitting machine? Damnit i'm still young! I'm still attractive! I still have a decent personality!!! What the fuck people!!?? I'm not even 19 yet and i'm already feeling like i'm fucking married. Still 18 and i'm tying myself down already. I've had a decent run in long term relationships. All of then ranging in over a year to almost 2 years. 5 years of relationships and only 2 months without a man. And shit what the hell!!? I feel bad because in person I haven't had another sex hit on me in about 6 months, It makes me want to throw a fit or just run away. Just....god damnit i'm pissed.