god i hate being lonely. i should be at warped tour. but im glad i didnt buy a ticket.
"never was and never will be your not real..."
true story.
anyway.
im scattered.
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im a horrible person. this is why things work the way they do. you get what you give and dont get any better.
i wish i could post more pictures. um..i should figure that out. wheres me digicam?? eh???
goin under
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wonder wonder wonder....do you ever wonder about those around you and their motivations for what they do???
its hard to say. real friendship is an elusive thing and you can be dead certain you have it but i think its really just about what that other person doesnt have at the time that they are your good friend.
in other words i dont have good friends. its cool.
anyway...
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i want to reschedule my shoot with london as my photographer but im not sure its working out right now. damn me and my inability to drive (legally)
well i think im going down there with a friend. i mean i THINK i dont know...ooooh but i hope so.
soo.........
how do you know?
really?
why isnt there a way to just kn ow????
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so i recently stepped away from a relationship i couldve had, that i had wanted, because i have no room for new friendships of any kind right now.
not with all this shit. and the fun part??
its all in my own head. its just me. but well........its not all me its just that im the onlly one having problems because of it.
eh...well.
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its not that...oh....
"i dont wanna be lonely, i just wanna be alone"
not quite. but somewhat like that.
this is not
a perky
entry.
but....
meep!!!
had to say it....
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oh dear freedomtoobey (is that spelled with an e....)well anyhoo, i got your letter the day after my birthday.
squeel!!! i love it. its a good letter. and thank you for the cd's. im stoked!!
your awesome. i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really wanted to go to warped and hang out with ya.
sorry.
i couldnt go.
not my choice.
just didnt happen.
what...eh...sorry.
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uch....its just wrong.
thank god for my kelly girl. she's a good friend. were sposta try to buy engagement rigns today....heehe...
well...
all is well...
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no...wait...well?
ehm....feeling empty and in need of a friend. dont. if your not my friend dont pretend to be and dont fuckin use me.
im easy to use actually, cause i like to help people.
ooops.
ohk....
ha.
life is a silly thing.
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vanity and self indulgence
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happy birthday smoking bastard nail coffin lighter man
torch0316
i get the numbers in the name mixed up alot so hope i typed them properly.
go tell im happy birthday, eh?
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so...send me some virtual hugs cause im not feelin the love
"never was and never will be your not real..."
true story.
anyway.
im scattered.
************************
im a horrible person. this is why things work the way they do. you get what you give and dont get any better.
i wish i could post more pictures. um..i should figure that out. wheres me digicam?? eh???
goin under
*************************
wonder wonder wonder....do you ever wonder about those around you and their motivations for what they do???
its hard to say. real friendship is an elusive thing and you can be dead certain you have it but i think its really just about what that other person doesnt have at the time that they are your good friend.
in other words i dont have good friends. its cool.
anyway...
***************************
i want to reschedule my shoot with london as my photographer but im not sure its working out right now. damn me and my inability to drive (legally)
well i think im going down there with a friend. i mean i THINK i dont know...ooooh but i hope so.
soo.........
how do you know?
really?
why isnt there a way to just kn ow????
***************************
so i recently stepped away from a relationship i couldve had, that i had wanted, because i have no room for new friendships of any kind right now.
not with all this shit. and the fun part??
its all in my own head. its just me. but well........its not all me its just that im the onlly one having problems because of it.
eh...well.
************************
its not that...oh....
"i dont wanna be lonely, i just wanna be alone"
not quite. but somewhat like that.
this is not
a perky
entry.
but....
meep!!!
had to say it....
************************
oh dear freedomtoobey (is that spelled with an e....)well anyhoo, i got your letter the day after my birthday.
squeel!!! i love it. its a good letter. and thank you for the cd's. im stoked!!
your awesome. i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really wanted to go to warped and hang out with ya.
sorry.
i couldnt go.
not my choice.
just didnt happen.
what...eh...sorry.
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uch....its just wrong.
thank god for my kelly girl. she's a good friend. were sposta try to buy engagement rigns today....heehe...
well...
all is well...
**********************
no...wait...well?
ehm....feeling empty and in need of a friend. dont. if your not my friend dont pretend to be and dont fuckin use me.
im easy to use actually, cause i like to help people.
ooops.
ohk....
ha.
life is a silly thing.
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vanity and self indulgence
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happy birthday smoking bastard nail coffin lighter man
torch0316
i get the numbers in the name mixed up alot so hope i typed them properly.
go tell im happy birthday, eh?
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so...send me some virtual hugs cause im not feelin the love
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You want an e-hug? You got it (-------------)...or however the hell you do it. I don't know, I are dum.
Happy Belated Birthday....I just noticed that right now.
I looked for you at the show. I had an operation ivy pin in my pocket for you. That's too bad you couldn't go. It was fun. I came home from seattle really poor. but I have some trinkets and I have a handfull of mint flavoured condoms from warped.
I'm glad you liked the letter and I hope you enjoy the cds. I actually forgot to send you one. so the next time you get a letter you'll get a letter, a pin and a cd. and maybe something else. who knows.
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why are you a horrible person? you don't seem like one to me.
yes. you should post lots and lots and lots more pictures.
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I am sad to hear that you don't think you have good friends. I'll be your friend. *hug*
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hmmmmsounds to me like you need lots of hugs.
*hughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughug*
there. that should tide you over for a bit.
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no using. people who pretend, don't have time to give all those hugs.
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hmmm. is it silly that I have to go back and read your past entries before reading the current ones?