kahlua

uhmm....yah. so i dont even know if im actually going to warped tour or not. or alkaline trio. or if and when ill be able to get my set shot.

it would be so much easier if i had my car in order.

i desperately want to go to alki. and i really really want to go to warped.

but like i said, i dont know if i am. i want to. but....i do nt know.

stupid confusedness of mine!!!

sigh.

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heh. i realized that when i dont talk to cuteboyatmywork

and i feel like an idiot after, its not so much cause i didnt talk to him, but because i flaked out and im dissapointed and pissed at myself.

havent gotten to talk to him much. no longer for lack of trying, but for lack of oppertunity. i almost did yesterday though. that was good. got a smile in anyhow. probably confused the hell out of him. hahahha.

he confuses the hell out of me.

alot of the time now we just walk past eachother without acknowledgement, which is what im trying to change. used to be he would always say something to me. but thats my fault for being too chicken shit to even say hi.pfff....bleh.

and then it was like, half the time he talked to me he was real quiet and seemed kinda bummed out, and the other half he would be totally the opposite. im confused.

????????????

what the shiott bro??? now im just trying to be better about being or not being chicken shiott.

i realized i like havin the upperhand in any kind of guy/girl dynamic, which is why i get so bummed and frustrated with myself.

tomorow is my birthday, since i work 11pm-8am its kinda my birthday tonite. so im hoping to be confident cause its m y birthday. or something.

sometimes when its your birthday, another employee will announce it over the intercom. im hoping thats what they do for me so maybe ill actually have someone wish me a happy birthday.

hopefully cuteboyatmywork will, huh????


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i have to get myself a trip pass so i can drive my car without insurance, to get its system cleared and then into emmisions.

assuming it passes, the title will be transfered. probly to my moms name, since i dont have my license. i will then, get my license.

and drive myself a lincoln.

lincoln town car 88.

looks like crumpled up tin foil spray painted white. but runs very well.

hurrah!!!

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tomorows my birthday guys. are you excited for me???

i hope someone is. im used to being forgotten. boo!!!

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i spent fourth of july all alone again. booo!!!

i love going to bbq's and get togethers, which is exactly what i missed out on yesterday.

booo!!!!!!!!

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i dont have much left to say.

how do you get to go to school in the uk???

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lets play the game!!!


SOUND!!! (you shout system, right??)


ok
here
we

gooooooooooooooooooooooo

SOUND!!

SOUND!!

SOUND!!

gooooo


i just like the gooooooooooooooooooo a bit too much.

well
hey
life
is swell

catch ya on the rebound.