kafkaesquedream

i did the unthinkable last night...but i had to...i couldn't keep fighting so hard because that wasn't working and obviously before i wasn't fighting hard enough, i didn't know what the middle ground was...and i couldn't deal with him doing whatever it is that he needs to do and still have that "he's MY boyfriend" issue, because i'm not that strong of a person...and it all hurts so bad...because i am so in love with him...but until he can tell me the same thing...i can't sit around and let my heart get trampled every time he goes out...so i did what he couldn't and should have...that was the only way i could think of to be strong...i'll wait for him he's worth that much to me... if you love something give it away...