kabukikat

days not drinking
me= 5
me <3 alcohol =43

ok so i have had 3 cigs today...

been jamming to music all day.. laying in the sun & "relaxing"
I am lonely... & just wanna fuck for like 2 days straight.... la sigh.. but at this no guy with which to do that... no one that i can call mine....

Wanted to paint but... was lazy & uninspired....
neck & back is killing me.. doctor gave me lithium for it but that shit knocks my ass out.....I feel distant on this stuff
Numb even.... & i can't seem to get enough sleep....

i have been wondering who i am supposed to be.... i don't know..... maybe just me.... but is that good enough, for me? I am not sure anymore...