zabyvay navsegda...
don't expect much sense right now... i need to pee... i'm recently back from the bar... i miss you all... i just found out that i'm still paying for this, so i might as well use it... i am here... i'll try n' keep up to date now... things are good... surprising... i am happy... -er than i can explain...
i'll try to...
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don't expect much sense right now... i need to pee... i'm recently back from the bar... i miss you all... i just found out that i'm still paying for this, so i might as well use it... i am here... i'll try n' keep up to date now... things are good... surprising... i am happy... -er than i can explain...
i'll try to...
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bleh... i've been feeling ill lately... allergies have torn at the back of my throat for about a week now, but finally the song seems to be returning to me... my life has taken a rather interesting turn as of late... i have yet to determine if it is a direction headed that ends in light or not... constantly i can be found complaining of...
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i feel very detached from reality as of late... nothing is making the sort of sense that i am expecting and preferring... with everything i do, i have this shadow beside me that i've created as the me that has everything happen as i imagine it's perfected outcome in my mind to be... each morning i wake up and look back on the night past......
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amerikanxdream:
Just pray that shadow is always there, to give you insight as to how you might go about things differently, to change the outcome of a situation.
Thanks for bringing that XP disc over, but you left it here jerky, just thought i'd let you know in case you needed it in the near future. Everything on this stupid box is back to running status.... yeemuthafuckinhaw
[Edited on Apr 10, 2005 2:47PM]
Thanks for bringing that XP disc over, but you left it here jerky, just thought i'd let you know in case you needed it in the near future. Everything on this stupid box is back to running status.... yeemuthafuckinhaw
[Edited on Apr 10, 2005 2:47PM]
*sigh*
x24x:
yup.
k_belmont:
webcam shots
http://KyleBelmont.ww.com
(recently updated... because i now have it running super smooth... enjoy!)
so i've decided to put up a webcam of me... kind of pointless really... but, someone needs to watch over me and make sure that i'm not doing anything stupid... or, they can just be creepy, and watch me... maybe this will keep my interest up... this is kind of a pointless post,...
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(recently updated... because i now have it running super smooth... enjoy!)
so i've decided to put up a webcam of me... kind of pointless really... but, someone needs to watch over me and make sure that i'm not doing anything stupid... or, they can just be creepy, and watch me... maybe this will keep my interest up... this is kind of a pointless post,...
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k_belmont:
what you mean to say is... humor at the expense of me... or at least currently... ass...
x24x:
i'd soooo lick... I mean... I'M NOT GAY!!!!
most people draw lines in their lives that are not meant to be crossed... it seems that anytime that anyone feels a fear of something or another, they draw in imaginary boundary lines, never to return to the cause of that fear... a total mind blocking hindrance of a line... no man can grow when they have caged themselves in, halting all learning and progress...
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abyssia:
I read and I like what I read.
i am really missing my cat right now... 
flesh covers the bone... they put a mind in there and sometimes a soul... nothing else fills it but sometimes it spills, as the sadness leaks...
flesh covers the bone... they put a mind in there and sometimes a soul... nothing else fills it but sometimes it spills, as the sadness leaks...
abyssia:
skin sacks - the prison of the soul. even when we leak... we know we are leaking out... and it feels wrong. that is what is really wrong. ever want to scream?
starry_eyed:
omnipresent downfalls flowing through bloodstreams.... our bodies feed.
in everything we do in this world that we find ourselves lost in, time and time again, we are forced to fully give in to whatever it is that is demanding our attention... the more that we work towards something, the more we dull and blunt the instruments we work with... i am glad that i have at least made my fair share of attempts......
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starry_eyed:
you're tired b/c your silly ass hangs out with me at the diner
on the brighter side of things... i am sitting in my office, accompanied by cinnamon rolls and french vanilla cappuccino... i'm rather bored, as it seems that many people called off from work, due to the weather conditions... lame...
i'm tired of feeling lonely... obviously it is a deeper rooted seed than said loneliness, by definition... last night, i was sitting around my apartment, feeling...
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i'm tired of feeling lonely... obviously it is a deeper rooted seed than said loneliness, by definition... last night, i was sitting around my apartment, feeling...
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starry_eyed:
sometimes loneliness is just a reminder of how many people you took for granted. then you get around people again and are reminded how much people in general suck.
love in non-existant
reality is just your perception. it can change from moment to moment... after the fact though, memories don't change.
love in non-existant
reality is just your perception. it can change from moment to moment... after the fact though, memories don't change.
starry_eyed:
you so rock thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
have you ever sat around, alone, for so long that you finally use your voice, and it seems sort of, out of place... it's rather odd... i've been sitting around my apartment in boxers, and haven't spoken to anyone, all day... and suddenly i repeated something that i saw on tv, out loud... and everything seemed rather awkward and very out of place... i laugh,...
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abyssia:
personification. the beauty and horror of "reality." depression. loneliness. longing to be alone. betrayal. children. morbidity. awareness. the word perpetuum.
of course, i could go on... but i don't think i need to. i don't claim to understand you, but i can claim identification with much that you say. thank you for saying 'allo!
oh, and i do a lot of odd things to test my own reality.
of course, i could go on... but i don't think i need to. i don't claim to understand you, but i can claim identification with much that you say. thank you for saying 'allo!
oh, and i do a lot of odd things to test my own reality.
the joy of writing late at night...
when i finally capture that mood...
and that repeating defeating depression...
in such a sense that no one has suffered more...
more suffering no one since...
now the songs that made me laugh just make me sad...
remembering memories we've had...
you can't go back!
i can't go back!
we can't go back?
sweet heart attack...
a black...
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when i finally capture that mood...
and that repeating defeating depression...
in such a sense that no one has suffered more...
more suffering no one since...
now the songs that made me laugh just make me sad...
remembering memories we've had...
you can't go back!
i can't go back!
we can't go back?
sweet heart attack...
a black...
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