Its mid week and I am stressed out completely. For those of you who dont know me or did not know, I am having Gastric Bypass surgery next Tues. I have been having to loose weight for the last 3 months, I have lost 30 lbs so I can have it done laproscopicaly. I have been eating nothng but protiens and greens and staying away from sugars and all sorts of shit. Now its come donw to the wire. Starting Sat morning I will have to go on a 3 day clear liquid diet 
I will be off work for approx 1 week or so without pay as I work on commision only I dont get payed when I am not at work. I have been trying to get as much business done as possible but with the Holiday and being mid summer times are tough in sales. I hate to feel this way and also knowing I am doing such a possitive thing in my life. It will be like regaining my youth. I have been dealing with my weight for the last 10 years or so and if I dont do anything now because of my genetics I could be in for some serious health issues my mother and grandmother has had. Cancer, high blood pressure, strokes, etc. I am 34 and already have sleep apnea and acid reflux and a bad back. By doing this I know these problems and many more will go away with also dietary changes and a new lease on life. My energy level will soar and so many other doors will open for me again. Right now I am at a time where this is the biggest focus on my life and I am having to make sacrifices for it as well. I am a little nervous but I know the surgery will go smoothly. I am a little impatient but so close now. I am a little annoyed that I have to have clear liquids for 3 fucking days. And I am bitter that my finances are gonna suffer for a month or 2 because of it. But on the good side I wont have many food expenses for a while. Wont be buying any booze for a year or so. I just want to get this done and over with already. Unfortunately for all of these stresses, worries and issues I feel right now I dont really have much of an outlet. I cant go get drunk, I cant go and eat my troubles away, I cant spend any money I will need for bills later. Anyways I could use some positive energy right now. Writing this shit makes me feel a little bit better. 
I will be off work for approx 1 week or so without pay as I work on commision only I dont get payed when I am not at work. I have been trying to get as much business done as possible but with the Holiday and being mid summer times are tough in sales. I hate to feel this way and also knowing I am doing such a possitive thing in my life. It will be like regaining my youth. I have been dealing with my weight for the last 10 years or so and if I dont do anything now because of my genetics I could be in for some serious health issues my mother and grandmother has had. Cancer, high blood pressure, strokes, etc. I am 34 and already have sleep apnea and acid reflux and a bad back. By doing this I know these problems and many more will go away with also dietary changes and a new lease on life. My energy level will soar and so many other doors will open for me again. Right now I am at a time where this is the biggest focus on my life and I am having to make sacrifices for it as well. I am a little nervous but I know the surgery will go smoothly. I am a little impatient but so close now. I am a little annoyed that I have to have clear liquids for 3 fucking days. And I am bitter that my finances are gonna suffer for a month or 2 because of it. But on the good side I wont have many food expenses for a while. Wont be buying any booze for a year or so. I just want to get this done and over with already. Unfortunately for all of these stresses, worries and issues I feel right now I dont really have much of an outlet. I cant go get drunk, I cant go and eat my troubles away, I cant spend any money I will need for bills later. Anyways I could use some positive energy right now. Writing this shit makes me feel a little bit better. 
hopelessstar:
Good luck and I hope that everything goes as smoothly as possible. Have a speedy recovery, and more power to you for going ahead and taking control of your problems.
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user209834982:
you're doing good though! i however, am eating marshmallows, because i have zero willpower. 