justsayfaux

so i had a kind of weird day yesterday. started the day finally getting a permanent residence. hopefully it will work out -- we will see. i think i can swing it though.

met up with some friends in the late morning and dropped one of them off at school (SFCC). i hadnt been out in the nieghborhood since i was really little. its where my mom used to live, so i figured 'why not swing by the old neighborhood while im here?'.

its funny when youre a kid and everything is taken at face value, you dont entirely understand your surroundings. i never realized how ghetto that area was until i drove back. kind of gives me a new persepctive on things. like where you come from. a little bit of an adult perception of where my mom grew up and a piece of who she is. i love her to death and im actually really surprised at how she turned out considering the way she grew up and all the shit she had to deal with.

::weird, my mom just called as im writing this::

she told me stories from her childhood when i got older and it blew me away. kind of one of those 'that could never happen to me' mentality thing. but it did, and to her, and well, i dunno. it just makes me have a lot of respect for her. not in the 'street cred' sort of way, but more in a 'overcoming adversity' sort of way. shes a badass, but youd never know if you met her now. shes one of the sweetest, empathetic, giving people youll ever meet. and it all means so much more after seeing and knowing and finding out what she had to go through to get there.

yup. thats my thought for the day.




gotta respect the moms: nightmare of you - s/t