My mother is pyschotic. And I'm not just saying that to be mean. I honestly think that she is. To make a LOOONG story short, she's been divorced and remarried (even though I told her "NO NO NO!")... and now they are separated and need to get a divorce.
So, how do I come into this? Well, they both feel the need to keep my up to date on every horrible thing they do to eachother. SO I stopped talking to them both. FOr months. Okay... today hell breaks loose. First, new hubby comes over, and tells me EVERY god damn thing that my mom does that is crazy. Like from CLEAR back when. My mother used to do this every time WE got in a fight, so I've learned to shake my head and pretend I'm listening. THis time I did that by peeling that crazy white bark off of my tree outside, but that's beside the point.
SO, I forget about this while I'm at work... and there, out of the corner of my eye comes my mom. GOd I know what is coming, and no I don't believe in god.
So she starts talking her crap... right infront of EVERYONE I work with. I want to die. So I run away and clock out, and hide her in the bathroom. That doesn't work, so I head for the door. At this point she realizes that I'm not agreeing with EVERYTHING she says, and gets all pissed at me like everything that has happened is all my fault.
So I just say fuck it and walk to my car. But then I have a guilty conscience. Like I feel like she feels so low that she might just go off and kill herself, but I dont think I can really do anything to HELP her. Am I evil because I think she put herself in the situation and needs to just get a divorce and get over it???? I've never even once in my life put my problems onto another person, or even asked for help.... so I dont know how to deal with this.
SOrry for blabbing away, but what a great way to break in a new journal but with a big, long, depressing cry baby entry. That's all... I'll stop now. Maybe something good will happen tomorrow!
So, how do I come into this? Well, they both feel the need to keep my up to date on every horrible thing they do to eachother. SO I stopped talking to them both. FOr months. Okay... today hell breaks loose. First, new hubby comes over, and tells me EVERY god damn thing that my mom does that is crazy. Like from CLEAR back when. My mother used to do this every time WE got in a fight, so I've learned to shake my head and pretend I'm listening. THis time I did that by peeling that crazy white bark off of my tree outside, but that's beside the point.
SO, I forget about this while I'm at work... and there, out of the corner of my eye comes my mom. GOd I know what is coming, and no I don't believe in god.
So she starts talking her crap... right infront of EVERYONE I work with. I want to die. So I run away and clock out, and hide her in the bathroom. That doesn't work, so I head for the door. At this point she realizes that I'm not agreeing with EVERYTHING she says, and gets all pissed at me like everything that has happened is all my fault.
So I just say fuck it and walk to my car. But then I have a guilty conscience. Like I feel like she feels so low that she might just go off and kill herself, but I dont think I can really do anything to HELP her. Am I evil because I think she put herself in the situation and needs to just get a divorce and get over it???? I've never even once in my life put my problems onto another person, or even asked for help.... so I dont know how to deal with this.
SOrry for blabbing away, but what a great way to break in a new journal but with a big, long, depressing cry baby entry. That's all... I'll stop now. Maybe something good will happen tomorrow!