justblaze

Life is kind of funny some times. Seems every once in awhile you get so wrapped up by things, you cant see clearly. Then after some time has passed and you have distanced yourself from the situation, you want to smack yourself in the head for acting the fool and going against your own character. Can always seem to give out good advice to people until its my own situation. Then it feels like I have been walking around with blinders on.

Throughout my life, I have done/said things that I look back to and wonder what in the fucking hell I could have possibly been thinking. I have always believed in karma and life presenting you signs. A lot of them people take for granted and dont recognize or miss The signs are there if you pay attention, but can easily be dismissed as circumstance, coincidence or something of the sort. Looking back, I always see the signs that were there for me, but for whatever reason, I chose to ignore, not trust, or reject because the answer seemed so lucid. Kind of frustrating, but at least I dont seem to be making the same mistakes twice.

It almost feels like I have been away for certain portions of my life and looking back, I dont recognize who was there wandering around in a clouded version of me. Its kind of fucking weird, and yea, I may totally be stoned right now, but this shit was making perfect sense while I reminisced at work earlier today when I wasnt baked. lol =P I guess sometimes you got through periods of your life wanting to believe something is true when it couldnt be further from it.

Its weird, for the passed few weeks I have felt very peaceful and back to my old self again. Almost that feeling when you have taken a much needed vacation and come back feeling all relaxed and at ease. A vacation without the vacation, because I sure as shit didnt go anywhere good. lol I have been singing for fucks sake! I mean, anyone who has ever gotten me out to a karaoke joint can sure as shit tell you, I NEVER sing. Aside from the singing in the car or shower, I have been singing in front of coworkers and strangers. Bizzaaarrreeeee.

Speaking of vacation, who wants to go? Snow and mountains, sun and beach, loud obnoxious and party? Sign me the fuck up! =D Has money, will travel.

I have nothing to really be ecstatically happy about, lifes events have been generally ho hum as of late. they fired one of my coworkers and asked us all to pick up the slack with no pay raise, 2 more dental appointments until I schedule more for next year, I am broke until after the holidays, which isnt that surprising given the time of year, but I mean shit, things can be MUCH worse. I could have been born into a 3rd world country, not have anything to eat and nowhere to sleep. I could have no shoes and blisters on my feet from having to walk barefoot everywhere. I live in an awesome house that I contribute payments for. I have a car that I am in love with, even if it sprung a leak from an injector, needs an oxygen sensor replaced and still has scratches that my eyes never can seem to avoid. I have a good paying job that values me. I have my fucking teeth, they dont look like they need as much work as they really do, but they are mine and in overall good shape. The car is envied by many, hated on by others, but fuck the haters ... for real. lol I am in overall good health, shit, life could be a lot worse right?

Fuck, for all I know I can be sitting in my house posting this blog, getting up to take a piss in the best mood I have been in for more years then I care to count and a fucking Air Force plane nose dives and lands on my house ... Seriously that was some crazy shit, tomorrow sure as fuck is not guaranteed.

I guess what I am saying after all this is that I am feeling appreciative lately and that I took a lot of things for granted. High time I get to that appreciating everything level again. Happy mediums is what I am looking for instead of the extremes one way or the other. Need some balance or some shit, lol jesus whats with me spewing out all the one liners? lmfao

Did you ever get so affected by a song that it turned on every switch upstairs, gave you goose bumps and make things make sense to you all of a sudden? Certain lines are so poignant they feel like a slap in the face pulling me out of the cloud.



Bonus points to whoever can tell me why the crowd goes beserk when the kid comes out on stage for the live version of the same song as above.



Shake it easy yo!