jupitersunrise

i just went for a long walk. it cleared my head quite well. something about being outside on such a beautiful day makes me think of summer and happier times. this summer is going to be the best ever, it has to be. it will be my first summer away from home and i want to have a blast.
i can't help but think about Kyle. every stupid little thing reminds me of him, of some memory we created. they are not bothering me so much anymore but they're still there. my memory is so vivid with certain things and it sucks sometimes. i will get over him, i've already begun. there will be worse heartbreaks i'm sure, although i can't imagine a worse feeling than what i went through yesterday. if anything is harder than that, i am not sure i ever want to fall in love for real.
lesson learned: i gotta protect this heart a little better

and i hate to say it, but damn i am gonna miss the sex.