julies1103

That Is What Learning Is. You Suddenly Understand Something You've Understood All Your Life, But In A New Way.

I told someone this week that I thought life was a learning experiance. I really do think that but I was so busy feeling sorry for myself I almost forget to reflect and think about what I've learned. I stopped and thought about it and it's nothing heart stopping or mind blowing but it was important to figure out. Here is my list of what I've learned from my most recent friendship, relationship or whatever it was:

>A guy with a cat can still be a dick
>It's not wise to smoke 3 or 4 bowls before trying to find your way home when you don't know where you are
>I do fall too hard too fast, but not in general just for the wrong guys
>I didn't do anything wrong except be myself and if that's a sin then I'm guilty
>Older guys aren't the answer, they too can be idiots
>Don't believe someone likes you, even if they say they do
>Don't believe someone wants you to be their girlfriend until it actually happens, even after that skeptisim is good
>Hardly anyone uses the truth anymore
>What doesn't kill us does make us stronger, but no one tells you it still hurts like hell
>Life is about questions,we never learn the answers to all of them(this pisses me off)
>He obviously wasn't as smart as I thought if he passed up a chance to know me


I thought the whole situation and all the time I spent and feelings I had for this guy was just a huge waste of time but I learned some things and I had a lot of fun while things were good. So far all good things must come to an end , but I'm still out to prove that this doesn't have to be true. Yesterday my teacher said I didn't look too happy. I told her I wasn't happy to be awake and then she asked me if I was happy to be alive. I thought about it for a second and laughed at how foolish I was being about a guy I had only known a few months. I am happy to be alive. I'm still here fighting through this mess that is life. I am still alive and I'm going to make the most of it.