"I don't like you, you don't like me. I don't love you ,you don't love me. I really really love you and you really really love me."
Sometimes the words of a child make more sence then those of an adult.
I realized last week that I need to spend more time reflecting on my days, thoughts and actions. I think part of why I can't sleep at night is because that's when my mind has time to think and worry. I've been feeling like I don't fit in or belong in most situations. It's like my body is there but I'm watching from another point of view. Like I'm on the outside looking in. I don't feel like I'm being antisocial or distancing myself.
I think I've figured out why I'm such a jerk magnet. I think it's because I'm too kind hearted and accepting. People can see that and some choose to take advantage of it. I mean honestly who decides to date a recovering (my ass, once a drug addict, always an addict)drug addict? No one but me. Everyone else would run screaming. I give people chances who don't deserve it. I guess there's part of me that's still so naive. A part of me that deep down atill believes there's a hope for humanity, but the simple fact is there aren't that many good people left in the world.
Sometimes the words of a child make more sence then those of an adult.
I realized last week that I need to spend more time reflecting on my days, thoughts and actions. I think part of why I can't sleep at night is because that's when my mind has time to think and worry. I've been feeling like I don't fit in or belong in most situations. It's like my body is there but I'm watching from another point of view. Like I'm on the outside looking in. I don't feel like I'm being antisocial or distancing myself.
I think I've figured out why I'm such a jerk magnet. I think it's because I'm too kind hearted and accepting. People can see that and some choose to take advantage of it. I mean honestly who decides to date a recovering (my ass, once a drug addict, always an addict)drug addict? No one but me. Everyone else would run screaming. I give people chances who don't deserve it. I guess there's part of me that's still so naive. A part of me that deep down atill believes there's a hope for humanity, but the simple fact is there aren't that many good people left in the world.
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As far as the jumping, yep, totally for you. And well.. not to brag.. but I'm kind hearted too.
A lot of people deserve a lot more than they give themselves credit for.
You deserve a lot more than the "jerks." Hang in there.