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I WANT TO BREAK FREE

Well, it's been 4 months since the quarantine started here in Brazil, I'm 4 months locked up at home, I know I have the privilege of having food, and a roof to shelter me! But I also have my weaknesses, and I'm freaking out.

I'm not able to concentrate, it's been very difficult to do simple tasks, and my anxiety attacks are only getting worse.

I try in many ways to occupy my mind, creating content on instagram and onlyfans, I try to take care of my home, my beauty ... but it seems that nothing fills the void that the fear of not seeing my parents again or not being able to hug my friends again, is causing.

My first SG photoset came out in a month, and I can say that I'm crying as I write this, because it has always been a big dream, but it seems that I can't enjoy it, I can't fit in, I feel like I can't even get close (even that virtually) of so many people that I like and admire that I met here and I'm sorry for that, I feel that my head will explode, in some moments of happiness and pride and in others of despair and sadness.

Here in Brazil things are VERY ugly, as well as in many other places. The situation of health, politics and the environment, as well as social issues and many things beyond that.

And I can't help thinking about so many less privileged people and I can't do anything. And that thought prevents me from even doing things that I know I can, simple everyday things, that I could do for myself.

It is a pity everything that happens, this is the outburst of a girl who dreams a lot but at the moment she is unable to fly.

I hope you are well and safe!

Stay home, kisses!

@missy @rambo @lemon @jacqueline