This totally made my day:
... I couldn't stop laughing.
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My mood has improved significantly since the arrival of my loan check this morning.
I'd been moping about all weekend -- wanting nothing better than to bury my face in the pillows all day, yet past the point of hating my new reclusiveness. A few moments after D rushed off to run errands I jumped up, got dressed, and rode my bike down the block to meet him at the laundromat -- instead of waiting idly around the house for his return. The cold air felt marvelous blowing into my coat as I rode past San Pablo traffic ...
Although it felt a little off to be so changed by a bit of cash. I worried momentarily about the meaning of materialism, albeit only briefly.
I had to tell myself: This is it for the next 4 months, kiddo. Easy, girl, you didn't win the fucking lottery.
... But oh, did it feel good to pick up the groceries tonight. And it's gonna feel even better to call my debtors to say, 'Yes, I'd like to make a payment, please... '
Keeping my head above water. As per usual.
*
Crow is learning to use the cat door. And I think he has a crush on Suki. He acts "funny" around her.
And I'm learning to use the Keeper. Being deathly afraid I'm going to accidentally suction out my insides is a drag, I've decided. So I just have to relax and go slowly.
Like everything else.

... I couldn't stop laughing.
*
My mood has improved significantly since the arrival of my loan check this morning.
I'd been moping about all weekend -- wanting nothing better than to bury my face in the pillows all day, yet past the point of hating my new reclusiveness. A few moments after D rushed off to run errands I jumped up, got dressed, and rode my bike down the block to meet him at the laundromat -- instead of waiting idly around the house for his return. The cold air felt marvelous blowing into my coat as I rode past San Pablo traffic ...
Although it felt a little off to be so changed by a bit of cash. I worried momentarily about the meaning of materialism, albeit only briefly.
I had to tell myself: This is it for the next 4 months, kiddo. Easy, girl, you didn't win the fucking lottery.
... But oh, did it feel good to pick up the groceries tonight. And it's gonna feel even better to call my debtors to say, 'Yes, I'd like to make a payment, please... '

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Crow is learning to use the cat door. And I think he has a crush on Suki. He acts "funny" around her.

And I'm learning to use the Keeper. Being deathly afraid I'm going to accidentally suction out my insides is a drag, I've decided. So I just have to relax and go slowly.
Like everything else.
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San Pablo traffic.
VUJA DE.
You know that nutty apartment on University that's pink? The one where the creepy guy is always sitting in the window in the dentist chair?
Yeah, I didn't live there.
But I did used to live in the place on California where there is a Tiki massage on the first floor. I always suspected it was a drunk front or something, because nobody ever went in or out.
But the sign was cool, and had a palm tree and everything.
Money can make us happy, at least for some seconds.
XOXO deeple passionated girl,
L.A.